[Happyme]

Hi Nightshade.
Phew That was a good rant, and I hope you feel lighter having let all that out.
Now time to roll up the virtual sleeves and get to work.
This requires lots of work on your part. You will get a lot of support here, but there is no magic pill, or program, and everyone's program is different. AND it takes time and persistence.
If your not scared off yet then lets begin.

!. most of all your body will not respond at all if you hate it. It has no incentive to please you if you don't like it So you first job is to change your mental approach. Everyday massage your breasts, and tell them how much you enjoy them. Take a long look at your body and mentally tweak those parts you want to change and visualize what your new body will look like. Maybe even write some notes on your goal measurements.  You gotta love yourself or nothing will work.
2. get a hormone test to find out whats out of wack. If you still have Acne at 20 then something in there needs adjustment.

Once you get your results you can work on a plan.
In the mean time here's some homework.

Two very good massage threads
http://www.breastnexus.com/showthread.php?tid=25391

http://www.breastnexus.com/showthread.php?tid=26280

Good thread for thin flat girls
https://www.breastnexus.com/showthread.php?tid=29218

wisdom from surferjoe
https://www.breastnexus.com/showthread.php?tid=23076

Its important to know the make up of your hormones.

You have a whole wonderful life ahead of you, grab it an run!
and you better not give up either!

Bobbi