02-10-2013, 17:52
Thank you Tibetan and Lotus for your responses.
Tibetan, I am conflicted in that I am gravely afraid to tell her (I know she deserves to know) for fear of losing her. We have been married for almost 20 years now and i have been very good at masking who I really am. I have overly-expressed masculinity and machismo so i do not think she has an inkling about my true female side. On the other hand, if I don't tell her and continue living as a man, then i risk losing the real (yet still buried) me. Damned if I do...damned if I don't!
Ultimately though ( and I hope this is not selfish of me) I would prefer to be who and what i am and hope she understands and supports me, but if not, I guess I will be in another relationship somewhere down the road.
Here are some pics after 3 months on my program:
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Tibetan, I am conflicted in that I am gravely afraid to tell her (I know she deserves to know) for fear of losing her. We have been married for almost 20 years now and i have been very good at masking who I really am. I have overly-expressed masculinity and machismo so i do not think she has an inkling about my true female side. On the other hand, if I don't tell her and continue living as a man, then i risk losing the real (yet still buried) me. Damned if I do...damned if I don't!
Ultimately though ( and I hope this is not selfish of me) I would prefer to be who and what i am and hope she understands and supports me, but if not, I guess I will be in another relationship somewhere down the road.
Here are some pics after 3 months on my program:
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