18-06-2012, 04:02 PM
Thank you Karen,
Happy to read you're happier now, and it helps me to read about the steps you took. Maybe I have given myself too much time before looking for new people, yes. I don't really need to work, but I am looking for a job that would really add something to my life. The job postings that make my heart skip a beat would have me go back to school first. The most recent one was for a starting helicopter technologist. Oddly, the algorithm thought it was a 99 % fit with my resume
All the big changes I made in my program so far turned out to be metaphors at the end of the day. Plants and herbs meant inner growth, revisiting NBE was about coping with grief after my mother died, and I branched out to new herbs at times when I was reading into new fields.
So this brain wave about hops may be a metaphor as well. An ambitious program like Anastasia's
http://www.breastnexus.com/showthread.php?tid=11855&pid=52266#pid52266
makes me think she's got other plans in life as well. Only, it's hard to tell what they are. And even for myself, I wouldn't really know what it means if I'm suddenly looking for possible effects of hops on my social life. It's possible that it means what you wrote: that I should shake things up. It may be a hidden desire to get out and about as well. The social life may even be a metaphor for something that happens entirely within myself. That also happenend a few times recently.
Anyway, the kids prepared a really nice father's day for me yesterday. I never enjoyed it like this before. So something is definitely moving here. I refocused my energy on them after I stopped working, and it feels good that they want me to know that they feel the love.
So it turns out that there is some freedom to adjust my hops dose without affecting the general course of my life. I might as well increase it then. After I decreased the dose from 3,200 mg to 1,800 mg on March 19th, I have grown only 1 cm, after the temporary effect of L-arginine wore off. So I want to go to six tablespoons, or 3,000 mg, a week from now, after the next tape day. You are right: the one thing I can do in the program that will improve my life is to add some bold moves
Happy to read you're happier now, and it helps me to read about the steps you took. Maybe I have given myself too much time before looking for new people, yes. I don't really need to work, but I am looking for a job that would really add something to my life. The job postings that make my heart skip a beat would have me go back to school first. The most recent one was for a starting helicopter technologist. Oddly, the algorithm thought it was a 99 % fit with my resume
All the big changes I made in my program so far turned out to be metaphors at the end of the day. Plants and herbs meant inner growth, revisiting NBE was about coping with grief after my mother died, and I branched out to new herbs at times when I was reading into new fields.
So this brain wave about hops may be a metaphor as well. An ambitious program like Anastasia's
http://www.breastnexus.com/showthread.php?tid=11855&pid=52266#pid52266
makes me think she's got other plans in life as well. Only, it's hard to tell what they are. And even for myself, I wouldn't really know what it means if I'm suddenly looking for possible effects of hops on my social life. It's possible that it means what you wrote: that I should shake things up. It may be a hidden desire to get out and about as well. The social life may even be a metaphor for something that happens entirely within myself. That also happenend a few times recently.
Anyway, the kids prepared a really nice father's day for me yesterday. I never enjoyed it like this before. So something is definitely moving here. I refocused my energy on them after I stopped working, and it feels good that they want me to know that they feel the love.
So it turns out that there is some freedom to adjust my hops dose without affecting the general course of my life. I might as well increase it then. After I decreased the dose from 3,200 mg to 1,800 mg on March 19th, I have grown only 1 cm, after the temporary effect of L-arginine wore off. So I want to go to six tablespoons, or 3,000 mg, a week from now, after the next tape day. You are right: the one thing I can do in the program that will improve my life is to add some bold moves