24-07-2011, 12:27 PM
Hi Soonenough, it seems like you understand exactly what I'm going through! 
I can't still get used to having boobs now and I suddenly don't know why I'm doing this. I continue automatically but I think it gives me satisfaction that I've achived something. It makes me feel good about myself. It's like a little (actually a big one for me) victory. Nobody else will understand me, only girls here can, I'm sure. My husband doesn't know but he gets suspicious and asked me many times why my boobs got bigger now. Until C cup I could use a joke and tell him it was all his imagination. But now, between C and D it is hard to tell him he's wrong, right?
I started NBE because of him. Or actually because of my insecurity about myself becaseu his ex-girlfriend had big boobs. I know, it's supid, but it was driving me mad. He's always been saying he liked my small boobs, that the shape is perfect, blah blah blah. Try telling that to an insecure person.. Well, nothing he said worked and I started growing boobs. Did I do it for him? Or did I do it for myself? To prove something? To whom? I don't know, there was so much mixed in my head at that momentn. In the end it became an obsession and I couldn't let it go. So now I've achived something and I know I should be happy. I feel proud but not about the boobs! Hope it doesn't sound crazy.. I'm proud of something else. Maybe of what I've achieved (2 years of struggle), that I didn't give up, that I went on. I'm still not sure about what I feel but I know that in the end it wasn't about the boobs, it was about proving to myself (yes, only to myself) that I can do something really difficult, something that others don't believe in.
Did you notice any change in your husband's "attention" to your boobs? Do you think (feel) that he likes them better big or small? I still can't say that mine likes them better or worse. There's really no change in his "attention" to them Maybe it does prove that the size of boobs doesn't really matter to some men?
I can't still get used to having boobs now and I suddenly don't know why I'm doing this. I continue automatically but I think it gives me satisfaction that I've achived something. It makes me feel good about myself. It's like a little (actually a big one for me) victory. Nobody else will understand me, only girls here can, I'm sure. My husband doesn't know but he gets suspicious and asked me many times why my boobs got bigger now. Until C cup I could use a joke and tell him it was all his imagination. But now, between C and D it is hard to tell him he's wrong, right?I started NBE because of him. Or actually because of my insecurity about myself becaseu his ex-girlfriend had big boobs. I know, it's supid, but it was driving me mad. He's always been saying he liked my small boobs, that the shape is perfect, blah blah blah. Try telling that to an insecure person.. Well, nothing he said worked and I started growing boobs. Did I do it for him? Or did I do it for myself? To prove something? To whom? I don't know, there was so much mixed in my head at that momentn. In the end it became an obsession and I couldn't let it go. So now I've achived something and I know I should be happy. I feel proud but not about the boobs! Hope it doesn't sound crazy.. I'm proud of something else. Maybe of what I've achieved (2 years of struggle), that I didn't give up, that I went on. I'm still not sure about what I feel but I know that in the end it wasn't about the boobs, it was about proving to myself (yes, only to myself) that I can do something really difficult, something that others don't believe in.
Did you notice any change in your husband's "attention" to your boobs? Do you think (feel) that he likes them better big or small? I still can't say that mine likes them better or worse. There's really no change in his "attention" to them
Maybe it does prove that the size of boobs doesn't really matter to some men?