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Another thing I struggle with may sound crazy, totally nuts. I can't adjust to my boobs. I used to be flat and now I have boobs. Nothing super big, C cup or something between C and D. I think when I started NBE I wasn't thinking how I will feel if I grow boobs. Now I don't think I like big boobs on me very much. At least now I feel this way. I wasn't wearing a bra before and now I must wear it, men look at my

Do I really want big boobs or is this the time to stop?

I so understand what you're going through, Ginnie. Ok, please don't shoot me, but when I reached that certain point which I was shooting for, all of a sudden, I lost the motivation. It's beyond what I thought was possible I can reach naturally; I'm not super big either, 34C/32D cup. I asked the same thing; do I want to get any bigger than this if it's possible? I'm so happy that I can fit the current size I'm in right now. I went to the store, and tried several bras of my current size, and I was genuinely very, very happy, and still couldn't believe the progress I made.

Also, husband is now repeatedly asking me to stop. He offered to pay for implants/liposuction, anything, if that's what will make me truly happy. I guess he doesn't want to see me striving/trying too much. He sees me weighing powders and taking supplements, and he's getting worried. He requested that I labeled all my boob supplements just in case I drop dead or something, and he'll be able to tell the hospital. He mentioned not even once did I voiced my dissatisfaction with my breast's size, and now, all of a sudden, I'm trying to grow bigger? He kept on mentioning he doesn't care whether I have small or big boob, he says I'm perfect the way I am right now (ok, this is coming from him, so he may be blind or biased).

Just want to say too that I'm so tempted to stop also...take a break, think if I want to continue. I hate to admit this, but this is consuming my thoughts and energy, which quiltily, I should spend on taking care of husband, children, home, family, friends, etc.

Thanks for the post, for being honest.