[Anastasia916]

To be honest with you, the things I shared here are mild compared to some other things I have been through, I could write a book haha. But like I said, I hate sharing some things because instantly it makes people sad, it makes them feel sorry for me, and that's the last thing I want. I have a survivor type mentality not a victim one, I never consider myself a victim. And haha yea plenty of my ways of thinking and philosophies are Buddhist-like. But I an not Buddhist though I believe Buddha was a very wise person, I do not follow an organized religion view. But if I had to closely match my personal beliefs to an organized religion it would be between Paganism and Buddhism.

I grew up in poverty to, trust me I understand. I grew up in a "ghetto" where there were drug addicts, drug dealers, prostitutes, you name it. Drive bys happened and I often dodged bullets. My mom tried her best but often we didn't have money to eat and we got food from a church (my mom is Christian), often our utilities were cut off. Sometimes I had to go without baths because of it, got made fun of at school for smelling and not having nice clothes. But my thought is, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Don't let your past rule you, don't dwell on it. Think of it like this... you are not in that situation now, you are a strong person and you can appreciate things more than other people. I see so many take for granted things that they should be praising that they have. I'm sure you see it to.

I grew 4 cup sizes since starting my NBE journey years ago. And I wouldn't say I had low self esteem. But once I got to a certain size it was nice to be able to look the same size in a normal non-padded bra as I did when I had to wear extremely padded ones and stuff to look like I had something. I mainly wanted the size I was while pregnant and I have achieved that. It feels nice to be able to wear a normal bra or bikini top that isn't padded and still feel sexy. Before if I didn't wear padded ones I felt like a boy. I still thought I looked good as I was in shape, fit, toned, have a nice ass if I may say so lol, etc. It's just nice to have the one thing that I didn't particular like changed to where I am happy. If NBE never worked for me though, I would be just as happy. For me going into it, I was like if it works great, if not, oh well I have a hubby that loves me either way!

As far as subliminal tracks or hypnosis, I think you speak very good English for it not being your native tongue so maybe it will work just fine for you. I use to listen to a subliminal NBE CD every night while going to sleep or meditating. They have a silent track so it's easy to put it on that and sleep or do other things. I usually did it with headphones on so that hubby or anyone near me didn't start growing boobies haha