I’m on nbe since 2017, i tried everything and everything failed.
I’m dealing with self hate since my teens. In my teens i never had a boyfriend because i was very ashamed to get off my clothes. I’m not just flat-chested (and flat chested means AA cup, not b cup!!) but also fat. So, in my teens i decided to go into good diet and hard workouts to get slim and obtain a nice skinny shape to match my flat chest. I dealed with anorexia for this. I lost 40lbs, but i was never happy with this. My goal was the size 0, i skipped meals, i did 4 hours workout everyday, and yes, i took also pills to fight my depression and anorexia.
Right now i have my beloved size 0 and i’m insatisfied anyway.
My first boyfriend betrayed me and now he’s married with a girl with big boobs on a large frame.
But hey, Who cares? The last year i started to date an other guy, i was happy but few weeks ago he said “i dont like you, you’re ok but i don’t like your shape, i prefer my ex-girlfriend despite her horrible behaviout because she was a norma shape, but you’re too skinny and with no curves “
I saw his ex-girlfriend, she’s not a skinny girl, she’s fatty with a C cup, a normal shape, not the sexiest model shape, just a fatty shape with normal boobs. I’m feeling so ashamed and so low.
I just want a normal shape, like all the other girls, with boobs which match my body fat. I dont Wanna be thensexiest girl on this planet, just a fucking normal girl.
Right after that i’m thinkimg about surgery, but i know the result won’t be good, the more you’re flat the more your surgery seems weird.
I just wanna cry and die.