14-08-2020, 03:18 PM
Yesterday I pumped for the longest I've ever pumped before, 9 hours. It was one of those days where my breasts were just responding so well that I didn't have the heart to take the domes off even after my session was over. They were just filling up so much of the cup and so swollen but not even slightly discolored or even red. I love days like that. So I kept them on during my morning session for an additional 2 hours (so 5.5 hours) until I really just wanted to be more mobile. It was the most swelling I ever got before. It also showed me that 37 inches really is likely going to be the measurement that will make them symmetrical. Although I will (hopefully) be losing a lot of weight during this process so I have no idea what it will be with the weightloss, but if I were to maintain the weight I am at now it would be 37 inches though. So that would be 1.5 inches more from the day that I measured the day I took the picture. It's hard to factor in what it will be weight the weightloss though.
A sad thing happened yesterday though. I don't know if you remember me talking about the scoliosis and how having it bigger made me realize that one breast was higher than the other? I was hopefully thinking maybe I noticed it more though because it was my breast. Yesterday right after my nighttime session I was asking my husband what he thought and he was trying to be helpful not realizing the scoliosis thing was effecting it and was saying I should try to noogle it a bit higher and then I told him it was the scoliosis making that breast lower. He felt bad because he was trying to be helpful and didn't realize. He said what I said though that he didn't notice it before. This is really more noticeable when its really swollen and they look closer to being even and not in the picture where it was 36 hours after noogling. Now I'm not really sure what I should do though. That was with him looking directly at it though. I'd like to think with a bra on and a shirt it wouldn't be noticeable, but it makes me worry that once they grow if I'm wearing a bathing suit it will be noticeable. It's really my shoulder that is the problem (well it's obviously the spine but it's the shoulder that makes one breast look higher than the other). The shoulder with my larger breast is much higher and therefore that breast is much higher. I wish I knew how to fix this. If I move my shoulder that is lower and spine in an unnatural way everything looks even, so I could fake it for a picture if I wanted, but it would be nice if I could actually fix it.
I'm in stretchmark city lol. I haven't tried to do anything about it though because honestly, why bother? I'm covered in old stretchmarks anyways so does it really make a difference? They are smothered in cocoa butter for 7 hours a day when I'm pumping anyways. I don't measure my breasts all the time anymore or examine them which is keeping them from bumming me out. I'm just going to stick to taking pictures and measurements once a month and comparing them to the previous month and ignoring them the rest of the time. I keep waiting for my breast to feel more fatty and soft like the other breast or something. It's so hard even in the morning. It was pretty tough before (it felt like it had more glandular tissue and very little fat) and the swelling it has now makes it have a different feeling than the other. It might just be too early though. I will still have more swelling than fat day to day. I do wonder at what point this changes.
I think I've heard before that 600 hours is usually about a cup size increase so I wonder if in between month 3 and 4 I will have symmetrical breasts or close to month 4. Maybe by November they will be symmetrical if I'm lucky and then I could pump them both and get them to full B's although my larger one will probably drop down to a full A by the time I get to my goal weight which would add time. My goal is to have them be a large and full symmetrical 32B while at my goal weight by the end of the year. Then I'd hopefully be a full 32D by the end of 2021. That sounds reasonable although they will obviously do whatever they want lol.
A sad thing happened yesterday though. I don't know if you remember me talking about the scoliosis and how having it bigger made me realize that one breast was higher than the other? I was hopefully thinking maybe I noticed it more though because it was my breast. Yesterday right after my nighttime session I was asking my husband what he thought and he was trying to be helpful not realizing the scoliosis thing was effecting it and was saying I should try to noogle it a bit higher and then I told him it was the scoliosis making that breast lower. He felt bad because he was trying to be helpful and didn't realize. He said what I said though that he didn't notice it before. This is really more noticeable when its really swollen and they look closer to being even and not in the picture where it was 36 hours after noogling. Now I'm not really sure what I should do though. That was with him looking directly at it though. I'd like to think with a bra on and a shirt it wouldn't be noticeable, but it makes me worry that once they grow if I'm wearing a bathing suit it will be noticeable. It's really my shoulder that is the problem (well it's obviously the spine but it's the shoulder that makes one breast look higher than the other). The shoulder with my larger breast is much higher and therefore that breast is much higher. I wish I knew how to fix this. If I move my shoulder that is lower and spine in an unnatural way everything looks even, so I could fake it for a picture if I wanted, but it would be nice if I could actually fix it.
I'm in stretchmark city lol. I haven't tried to do anything about it though because honestly, why bother? I'm covered in old stretchmarks anyways so does it really make a difference? They are smothered in cocoa butter for 7 hours a day when I'm pumping anyways. I don't measure my breasts all the time anymore or examine them which is keeping them from bumming me out. I'm just going to stick to taking pictures and measurements once a month and comparing them to the previous month and ignoring them the rest of the time. I keep waiting for my breast to feel more fatty and soft like the other breast or something. It's so hard even in the morning. It was pretty tough before (it felt like it had more glandular tissue and very little fat) and the swelling it has now makes it have a different feeling than the other. It might just be too early though. I will still have more swelling than fat day to day. I do wonder at what point this changes.
I think I've heard before that 600 hours is usually about a cup size increase so I wonder if in between month 3 and 4 I will have symmetrical breasts or close to month 4. Maybe by November they will be symmetrical if I'm lucky and then I could pump them both and get them to full B's although my larger one will probably drop down to a full A by the time I get to my goal weight which would add time. My goal is to have them be a large and full symmetrical 32B while at my goal weight by the end of the year. Then I'd hopefully be a full 32D by the end of 2021. That sounds reasonable although they will obviously do whatever they want lol.