[PoisonIvy]

Your big breast definitely doesn't look like it's 2 sizes bigger than your small one. I'd say it looks like an A and the small one like an AA to me. I'm not sure, but it doesn't look like there is that big of a difference. I am not sure if your small one points more outward than the big one or if only looks that way because you were lifting your arm to take the pic. Other than that, they really do not look that asymmetrical. I'd say no more than one cup size. Are A cup bras too small for your big breast?
I always pump mine really big, it's so nice seeing it all round and full in the dome and I always hope it's gonna stay that way but it never does of course lol. It looks ridiculously small after removing the dome, but I can always feel that it is heavier than what I am used to.

I didn't know they had a butt pump, as well. Sounds kind of funny, but then again, a breast pump probably sounds funny to people, as well, I am just so used to it that I think it's normal. I really hope someone can give you an answer as to whether this would work or not.

I can imagine what your hips look like, I have a friend who has narrow hips, too. But she gave birth a month ago and I haven't seen her in a long time, so maybe that has helped, but I doubt it and besides it's not the solution you are looking for :-) Her body always looked a bit child-like because of her hips and while she was small, her legs would touch, as well.

I have to admit that I did not start my diet today.. I will tomorrow! I keep finding excuses, I always find something that I will have to eat before starting the diet, like cheese, and then I will go and buy toast to eat with the cheese and then the next day I can't start because I still have toast left and so on. Not that eating a slice of toast with cheese would be a bad thing even when I am on a diet, but the packages are always so big that you literally have to overeat as a single person to be able to eat it all before it goes stale. I could put it in the freezer I guess. 
Thank you, your wishes should motivate me to go to the gym tomorrow (it's 5:26PM and while the gym closes at 12AM, I feel like it's too late to go today because I ruined the day by eating too much already anyway). At least my metabolism should be pretty active at this point from all the eating and maintaining, so I am hoping to drop a couple of pounds the first week. 

Sorry to hear you are in this situation. I know exactly how it feels to be gaining weight and not be able to control it while you are in the middle of it. You said that everyone you know is getting fit, do you mean your friends and family and if so, how? I can see more people falling back into unhealthy habits or addictions, but I am surprised to hear that the people around you seem to be getting fit. What are they doing to not let the anxiety and the stress get to them, but instead turn it around and change their lives for the better? I doubt that there is this big secret, but maybe they have tips and tricks that could help you, as they seem to be in a similar situation as you are, but are handling it different. They only thing that I am doing differently now is that I drink less sugary drinks. I have a SodaStream and while I did buy high caloric syrup earlier today and already added that to one bottle of sparkling water, I try to just drink sparkling water, it's really refreshing and I hate flat water. Or diet drinks. I drink a lot of my calories especially in Summer.

My big breast is in between an A and a B. That's why I usually call it a small B because it gets squashed in an A, but there's still a small gap in a B, so it really doesn't fit either well. That's nice to know that it doesn't look like there's two cups of a difference between them though. Maybe my larger one is a small B then that's in between an A and a B and my small one is a small A that's in between an AA and an A?  Although it's hard to think of my small one as eve a little bit more than an AA though, so I'm not sure. Although once I lose weight my large one will go down to about a full A around my goal weight. 
I giggle every time I think of the butt pump as well. Mainly because I always envision someone trying to pump both at the same time lol. If someone said it worked though I would just do that awkward side hip area. 

Omg I'm the same exact way where I know I already screwed up so I'll get something to go with what I already have, but if I keep something in the house left over from the previous day then that means I won't start. I don't know how some people are doing it honestly. I feel like there's going to be a big divide once things somehow finally calm down with people who were thriving during this time and people who were super stressed and struggling. Some people just seem to really thrive during stressful times where they are able to focus on something healthy and productive and I wish I knew how because my motivation is so all over the place. So far, so good today, but I was already 132ish on Monday (I think it was Monday?) and then I messed up for the last few days, so I don't even want to know how much more damage I've done. 

Nothing really new to add as far as pumping goes. Still doing my same routine. Sometimes it's a bit annoying, but most of the time I don't mind. Like if I have to go out to get groceries or something and start pumping later at night than usual I know I'll be doing it practically until bed time, so times like that it's annoying because I have to practically keep a schedule with it to fit the time in. I consider it worth it though because I feel like I have to put in more work than others because my breast is just so unresponsive and needs so much TCL. I find myself a bit impatient to get to a full and symmetrical B as well. Although I doubt I'll slow down even after then unless I'm forced to lol. I'd rather put in more daily hours and have to pump for less months/years and hit my goal sooner then vice versa. Although I have no idea how any of it will play out or how long things will take or if there's a limit to growth. How are things going for you? 


@giogio good luck!!!