[PoisonIvy]

It's a good thing that your breast doesn't look underdeveloped anymore, I believe that it can make a big change, like going from a childlike to a womanly look. Even though there hasn't been much growth, it's a big achievement already!

Are your breasts the reason you don't feel comfortable wearing a swimsuit or is it body image issues in general? Or is it that you just don't like swimming?

I'm sorry to hear you are struggling with constant thoughts about food, as well. I wasn't good yday, but I was sweating my ass off last night (it's so warm here for our standards), so I was 130 lbs this morning. I probably sweated it all out lol.

Thank you for filling me in on what the situation is like over there. You never really hear how people feel, what you see on the news is the big picture. And for some reason, Americans are not very popular among a lot of people I have talked to about this. Nobody likes Trump so they blame the Americans for a lot of things. Like I heard someone had invented a cure for the virus and apparently the Americans bought it and they want to sell it to the rest of the world for a lot of money, trying to get rich at the expense of nations of sick people, whereas the Russians were about to come up with a cure, as well, and they are willing to give it to the rest of the world for free (or little money). I have no idea if any of this is true, but people like to badmouth the Americans. So I really appreciate your input on this as someone who is living there and is not just talking nonsense.

It sucks that the States that put enough effort into this to get it under control don't have any way to protect themselves against those that don't seem to care. Especially with schools planning to reopen soon.

What do you mean by if the president is going to accept it? Can he just refuse to accept the results of the election?

I measured my areolas yday and they are HUGE. The small one is 2.5 inches, the big one is 3 inches in diameter. Monsters!

I am sure I won't be happy for long once I'm at 112 lbs, but since it's the lowest weight I have seen on the scale in 1 1/2 years, it's definitely going to be my goal weight for now!

But you are right, we will get to our goal weight and get our breasts symmetrical. Yes, we can! :-)

I actually just sent you a private message about the politics thing because it was pretty lengthy and I figured it would be better to private message you then talk about it here. 

Thank you. I think it was the areola thing that helped the most for it looking less underdeveloped. It's still pretty small, but it makes a big difference whereas before it looked like a nipple with a tiny ring of areola around it which didn't help the appearance. It is a bit bigger as well, but I didn't realize what a difference the areola made. 

I just don't feel comfortable in a swimsuit at all. I've always been very uncomfortable in my own body. 

Lol I never actually measured my areola but now I'm tempted to and it's hard for me to even visualize what 2.5 inches of areola looks like because I've never measured them. It makes sense though to measure them. 

I got SO much swelling from my nightly session last night that they almost looked to be about the same size w/ the swelling. It was like 80% the size of the big one with the swelling and 1.25 inches of swelling. I measured it out of curiosity because I'm curious how many inches I'm going to have to grow just to get them even. I think I'll have to grow them roughly 2 more inches which feels insane to me. I've always heard that 1 inch difference between underbust and overbust is an A, 2 inches is B, 3 inches is C, 4 inches is a D ect but that doesn't apply to me. I have 2.5 inches difference right now so going by that rule I should be between a B and a C but I have a small B and like an AA. It looks like I'm going to need roughly 4.5 inches of difference (that is just a guess though based off swelling) just to have full, symmetrical B cups which sounds insane to me that I'd be so different from the norm. I don't know if I'm measuring wrong but I have a wide upper back and that might be part of the reason it appears like I need more inches for them to be even.