[PoisonIvy]

Glad to hear seeing all kind of different breasts made you feel a bit better about yourself, too. I always assume that everyone's breasts look perfect.

I agree with you on the night sessions not being a problem. I'd be in bed watching my shows anyway, so noogling while watching them doesn't feel like it's keeping me from doing anything. It's mostly when I am lying down to pump and then watch a show (early in the day) instead of lying down to watch a show (anyway) and pump.

Do you plan on working out at home? I have never managed to do that (other than a 15-minute session), I need to get out of the house to workout, but I don't have a lot of space.

Have you thought about cleaning or working out in the morning and then pump around noon and then again at night? Or do you always pump at the exact same time in the morning and in the evening?

Thank you, I was 129.4 lbs this morning, this is the first time this year that I am under 130lbs (as far as I remember). I think the last time I weighed less than 130 was last Fall or even last Summer. I lost around 12 pounds last year in June/July and got down to 112 lbs or so and then I gained like 30 lbs :-(  Whenever I try to lose weight, it either doesn't work or I gain it right back after losing it (plus some if I'm especially unlucky).

True, the higher I fly the harder I fall, so I try not to get too excited. I was at my friend's house yday and we went for a walk and since I am a vegetarian and don't eat blue cheese (too moldy for my likes yuck), there wasn't all that much I could eat, so I ended up eating some bread with a tomato, leafy greens and a small piece of feta cheese with some sauce, and a cold Milky way bar. I also tried some of the fruits in his garden and that was it. So the double-digit-rollover (from the 130's into the 120's) probably wasn't real.

Do you plan on getting a bra fitting when you are at your goal size weight-wise or when your small breast has grown a cup size?

Who knows, maybe you are some famous person and you're just not telling us 

It sucks that you couldn't delete your photo when you wanted to, I understand that this made you even less inclined to posting another picture anytime soon :-) You could still upload your pics to a website and then delete them from there again, but the point of having a before photo is to keep it until you have an after, which might take some time if you are into NBE lol.

That makes sense! It's harder to tell with your whole breast, it might look a bit swollen and you can see the stretch marks, but it's hard to tell whether it's actual growth or just swelling. But if your areola becomes wrinkly again and stays that size after not having pumped all day, it might actually be an indicator that your breast is finally responding to something. Your areola stay that size if there wasn't at least a little bit of growth.

It's Friday, I'm looking forward to hearing about your day!

That's awesome that it's going well for you!!! I'm happy for you. Girl, tell me your secrets to staying on track dietwise cause I'm a mess lol. I'm American and America is such a mess that between American politics and the pandemic I can't stop stress eating cause my country is a hot mess. I've just been in a constant state of panic for months and so I keep stress eating.  I started stress eating again today. I'm not even sure how to get it together completely, but I keep gaining weight rapidly and I need to. Girl same on the weightloss thing. I'm always gaining and losing the same weight over and over again and can't seem to keep it off for good. I think we're roughly the same weight. I was 129 the day I told you that I gained 2 lbs but I've screwed up twice since so don't know what I am now. I will not be going anywhere near a measuring tape or scale though until I get my act together for at least two weeks. I use to maintain 115-120 for a few years at one point and it was a nice range for me. I liked how I was at 115 for the most part except that I wished my stomach was a bit flatter. My goal is 112. I haven't gone below 121 in the last two years though because I keep gaining/losing between 121-131.

Yes, I plan on working out at home. I'm honestly thinking about pushing my morning pumping session back so I can start working out again even if it cuts into the total amount of hours I can noogle daily I have to start working out again. Even if it means only 2 hours in the morning or something I'd rather that than to not working out. At minimum working out would offset my stress eating, and at best it will help me to not stress eat because it will have made the workout a waste, so I do feel like I need to start prioritizing getting my act together w/ diet and exercise. 

It's been 20 hours since I finished my last pumping session. I def think the areola is permanently bigger because it has not shrunk back to it's previous size. It looks like my breast is slightly fuller. It wouldn't be noticeable if I weren't looking for it, although too bad I didn't take a picture at the beginning so I wasn't constantly second guessing myself. It looks a bit fuller underneath and the outer breast area. The areola thing I don't second guess, but I feel like I constantly second guess the actual breast because it's pretty subtle. I'm still not 100% sure that it's even real growth and not the last bit of swelling that will take longer to go down, but I really want to believe that if the areola is bigger that it is a tiny bit of growth. If my weight wasn't all over the place during this the tape measure could have been useful. It says 33 inch underbust and 35.5 inch overbust so it's possible that I gained .5 an inch or still have .5 an inch of swelling? Don't want to get myself excited though because it's only been 20 hours and like I said my weight is all over the place. Maybe that's just back fat or something idk. I do know that I normally have a 2 inch difference though. I wish I kept better records in the past but I'm pretty sure even at different weights it was a 2 inch difference between over and underbust, so I want to believe that the 2.5 inch difference means something and isn't back fat or something or swelling. If I gained .5 an inch of actual growth in 4 weeks I would be happy but it's so hard to know after only 20 hours if there is still swelling or if it is related to my weight gain. It might be easier to tell when my underbust is 32 again, but I'm pretty sure I normally maintain that two inch difference regardless, but then still what if it's still swelling?
I guess the moral of this tale is that I don't know how to celebrate because I'm constantly scared it's going to be taken from me and that I got excited over something that wasn't real and then I'll be deflated if that happens. So I'm holding off on calling it.
Looking at it again I'm being over the top over the backfat stuff. Probably because I feel a bit insecure right now over the weight stuff. While I didn't keep records before i've always remembered it as a two inch difference and it's currently 2.5 inches and it does look fuller. So the real question is if the .5 an inch is swelling still 20 hours later or if I've acquired some real growth after apparently pumping 49 hours a week (yikes lol). My nipple is so engorged lately maybe that's the .5 an inch lol (that's a joke). I don't think areola size would actually make a difference though considering it's basically skin?


EDIT TO ADD: Well it's pretty late here and I had errands and then had to make a late dinner, and I'm exhausted so pumping isn't happening tonight. I could do it for an hour at most, but I would rather not do it at all and get a better idea in the morning (roughly the 36 hour mark) at how much breast I have. I like doing it every day so I don't like to plan days off and just let them happen naturally when the real world demands it but every once in a while a day like this happens. 2 days off in 4 weeks isn't bad though, esp when I'm pulling 7 hour days. The other one was a forced one when my breast was overpumped and I had to try to de-hicky it lol. So crossing my fingers I still have that little bit in the morning and all of the swelling is already gone because that would be fantastic. I would feel good if I knew the long days were paying off and I was actually finally getting growth even if it will take a long time for my goal. I just want so badly for it to be growth and not swelling. Now if only I could be as on top of my diet and exercise as I am at my pumping schedule.