[PoisonIvy]

Not seeing any sign of real growth can be very demotivating. Going flat again after having seen some nice swelling. I gave up twice last year after a short period of time because of missing 2 days in a row and forgetting to take my Vitex and I felt like things weren't good enough so I might as well stop and start again at some point. That was stupid.

I am not so sure the tape is really gonna help as I feel that I have to press my nipple inward somehow because that's where most of the fat sits and the goal is to spread it out evenly. But maybe the tape will do the trick.

It's best not to weigh yourself when you already know you are going to feel bad about it. I assume you're gonna get back on track tomorrow (Monday) ? :-)

3 hours twice a day is a lot of pumping, that's 1/4 of your whole time. I often sleep on my back, but when it's so warm outside, I don't, I turn over and sleep on my side. I want to try to get used to sleeping on my back again for a few days and then try to leave the dome on when I go to bed. It would be so convenient to just sleep through a pumping session.

Good to hear you are not getting hickeys anymore, I really hope your breast will get used to the pumping more and more and not turn purple anymore.

I also notice it going to the outer breast more, but I thought this was because of my breast shape.

It's great to hear that the areola on your small breast is starting to look similar to the other when your breast is swollen. I had no idea areolas weren't circles, either, never paid that much attention to them, they just looked round to me :-)

I just hope this doesn't mean that my breast wants to grow in her own tubular way no matter where I put the dome. But that's what the tape and the ball are there for in my case.

I really wish we could see a pic of what we will look like in a year if we keep going, that would be so motivating (or not..) :-)

Sorry about things being demotivating for you. I haven't really figured out a trick with the nipple either. It becomes so engorged after a pumping session but it seems to go back down afterwards. That's what sucks about noogling though. It's a lot of time and a lot of commitment for something that we have no guarantee will work for us which is why we have to let the little things keep us motivated.

I'm not sure how I did it but I actually managed to get back on track yesterday lol. Yes, it's actually kind of annoying mainly because the pump falls off every time I stand up. It wouldn't be so bad if I could get it to keep the suction and not have to have the pump dangling every time I stand up. Hopefully the aquarium valve fixes that. My areola was actually still a tiny bit bigger this morning for the first time and there's still a little bit of swelling left in the mornings so I'm crossing my fingers that maybe it's a sign that real growth is happening but just not in an amount that I can see yet. Man, I really need to stop dragging my feet on taking those pictures. I would save myself a lot of headache if I could just look at pictures instead of trying to tell if there is a tiny amount of difference all the time. I wish there was a good way to measure the size of just one breast and to see what bra size just one breast is as well. I suspect my small one is AA, but it's impossible to check these things with such a big difference between the two breasts but it's just a little bud with barely even any areola so I feel like it has to be AA. Whenever I have tried on 32A's which suffocate my big breast because my big breast is a small 32B but there is still a good sized gap in there, so I'm fairly sure it's a 32AA. Which means I will technically have to grow 2 cup sizes just for them to catch up to each other, which is probably why I have been dealing with discouragement lately seeing how far I will have to go.  
I wonder how long you'd have to go without pumping to know if something is legit growth or swelling? I don't want to stop pumping to find out, but I am curious at what point you are allowed to get excited. I try not to get excited about the minimal amount of difference that is still there in the morning because after only 12ish hours it's probably still just a little bit of swelling. Do you have an idea of at what point enough swelling has gone down you can feel comfortable calling something growth? If my areolas stay bigger I will probably take that as a good sign, so I'll probably keep a close eye on them to see what they do.

It's possible that maybe it just has to build a pretty good base before trying to shape it a certain way. 
Right, I would love it if we knew where we'd be in a year. I think that's why I'm so anxious and impatient for the first amount of growth not because I'm impatient to get to my goal but because I'm impatient to get that feeling of okay, this method is working for me. Probably why I'm doing 7 hours a day is because I'm so impatient lol.

EDIT TO ADD: For all of my talk of wanting them to be symmetrical so bad though I just realized by looking at the swelling that this one is going to be quite a bit lower than my other one because of my scoliosis  I should have thought of that considering my larger breast has one shoulder higher than the shoulder on the side of the smaller breast and everything. I don't know why I never realized until now with some swelling that it's going to be lower than the other. Ughhhhhhh. I've been trying to measure my breasts but it's been hard to get a good underbust measurement and I couldn't quite figure out why all of a sudden I was struggling until I just noticed while looking at them it's because with the swelling it's sitting so much lower than the other breast so it's hard to even figure out where is a good part to get the underbust measurement. I was wondering why my underbust keeps fluctuating between 32-33 inches everytime I measure it when it's normally just a stable 32 and I think it has to do with me starting at different places when I do it considering I'd normally start right below my big breast (because there is normally almost nothing but a bud for the small breast) but now the swelling causes the smaller breast to get in a way so that method doesn't really work so I think sometimes I'm starting below the bigger breast and getting a little bit of the smaller breast in the measurement and sometimes I'm starting below the smaller breast. i don't know where I'm suppose to take the measurement now with one being a lot higher than the other. Now I wish there was a way to fix my scoliosis so I didn't have this problem. This normally isn't a thing I think about because it's always the same but it sitting lower is making it hard to even get an underbust measurement.