[PoisonIvy]

I'm glad to hear the things you did helped! I had never heard about that method where you use a coin. I've only once or twice in my life had a hickey, tho (boo), so I never bothered looking into it.

Did you end up pumping yday?

Do you think that you can get to a C or even a D cup with your 'stubborn' breast? I really hope that you will get there, but looking at myself, I don't think my small breast will ever make it past a B cup and I'm far from that still :-(  It would be great. We need to stay positive, I want to start listening to subliminals again. There is one, or two in that case, made for uneven breasts where you can actually target whichever breast is your small one. She made one for the left and the right breast and you just choose the right one for you. Not sure you believe in those things, though.

How are you doing today?

I actually had to look up ways to get rid of hickeys once I realized that the marks from overpumping are basically hickeys. I didn't wind up pumping last night. I decided to give myself the whole day off. It's like 95% gone and just a little pinker than the rest of my skin now. It was so sad to watch my breast completely deflate yesterday though " alt="" title=""> I knew it was only swelling but to watch it become practically flat again was sad. I think the reason I'm struggling with it overpumping so easily is because I don't really have much fat there and I feel like the skin on that breast feels really tight because of it. I do wonder if a small cup would have worked better than the medium cup, but I don't want to have to go order a small just for one breast when the medium is perfect for the other for when that time comes and when I might even be wrong about the small being a better fit. I don't actually know if it's possible, it's more like a dream goal lol. I would be happy if both my breasts were symmetrical and a nice shape (and the same shape) and full B's while at my goal weight (which is 15 pounds less). The larger one is probably a medium B right now but when I get to my goal weight it will be a small B and my small I'm not even sure but I wouldn't be surprised if it was a AA tbh. It's either a AA or a small A. Even though they would still be small they would feel normal at least. My dream goal is a C or a D though. I do wonder if I would have a better time with hormones while I was pumping, like if that would make my small breast suddenly respond or something, but I wouldn't want to take the chance until I saw that it could grow. My hope is to get to my goal weight & make them even and symmetrical and than be able to add Bovine Ovary to it. I always wondered since one of my breasts (the smaller one) actually looks underdeveloped if that would be a good fit for me combined with pumping considered BO is the best fit for people who are underdeveloped. They actually look like they are in two different development stages and everything. They stopped growing when I was like 13 and I feel like it was a very abrupt stop (probably because of my eating) but because of that they didn't really develop right and so I'm trying to fix that now. My temperature isn't really right for BO though so I'd have to get it up.

Seeing your breasts deflate again can be very depressing, I hear you on that. I've had that happen before even without taking a day off. I had even pumped before going to sleep and when I woke up, it (the one breast I am pumping) was flatter than it had been in days :-( Kind of makes me want to do all the pumping early in the day so at least I can enjoy the swelling!

I'm not sure if a small cup would be better suited, maybe things would have been even worse because there would have been more pressure applied to a smaller space. You know like when you're wearing a stiletto and you stand on someone's stomach it will hurt more than it would if you were wearing sneakers

I would be happy forever and a day if both of my breasts were the same size and a decent shape, as well. I'd take any size that looks ok on my body. Sometimes I am sad because I think this is such a normal thing and here I am wishing for something that most women on this Earth take for granted. 

Is there any way to get your temperature up? I have looked into BO because I also read it was a good option for ppl with tubular breasts. I am a vegetarian so I just googled it out of interest. But then again, if tubular breasts are the result of a constricting ring on the base of the breast, I would think that taking BO might very well make the breasts grow, but it wouldn't make the constricting band go away and therefore just make them look even more deformed ?  But it might be a good option for you. If your small breast hasn't responded to anything thus far and would end up growing because of pumping, would that make it more responsive to herbs and hormones in the future? I am not sure, but it's worth a try.

You mentioned your breasts being far apart, where do you place the dome when pumping? Mine are far apart, as well, but since I am borderline overweight atm, I have quite a bit of fat at the top of my breasts so when I push them together you get the impression that I have DDs or something ;-) This is so not what they are in any way, shape or form. I am trying to create more real cleavage by placing the small kangzhu cups on the insides of my breasts. We will see how that goes!

Do you wear a bra that's padded on one side? I always do.

Yeah, I think that's why I like doing the split sessions because you get swelling longer out of it. By the way, I started to get those stretch marks you were talking about so I see what you mean about them not being from growth. It's kind of annoying because I wouldn't mind it if it were actually from growth (the rest of me has old/silver stretchmarks from when I was a teenager so why not at this point lol) but I want to actually get real growth with it. Yes, I've heard of BO being a good fit for both underdeveloped and tubular though I'm not sure. You should check out Anastasia916 on here if you haven't already seen her posts. I'm not sure if it would make it responsive to other things. I think it's just my hope. My hope is that it just needs to be awakened or something if that makes sense and if I do that it will act like a normal breast and like my other one, although I won't be sure until the future. I move the dome around a bit but the circumference of the dome is quite a bit bigger than my actual breast which is part of the reason I wondered if a small would have been a better fit for that one. Because I don't want to order one for just that breast when it might not even be a better fit and I can still get a good suction and some swelling with the medium cups I don't see why it should interfere with it working though so I think I'm just stubbornly hoping it grows to fit it soon anyways. As far as my larger one goes (because my little one is really just a bud like when puberty just starts) the top and sides of the top is actually the area I lack the most fat but it has a decent underboob lol. It's a bit conical but it doesn't quite look tubular. My hope though is that if I grew it via pumping and BO it would get a nice round shape though, but before I can even think of that I have to turn my little one from a bud to match its larger sister. My larger one is small but developed while my little one actually looks underdeveloped. Lol I don't even wear a bra unless I'm going to the doctors or a family event. I wear thick t-shirts and they are so small it's not necessary that I wear a bra. 
I don't know if there are threads on here about it but I wonder if there are threads that show the difference between lower pressures for longer durations vs a good amount of pressure for shorter durations. I feel like I'm not going to get a good amount of pressure on the gauge until they grow a little because the skin is so tight w/ barely any fat there. Like I wonder if I would get growth out of doing my -1 to -2 pressure but if I increased my time of doing it?
As of last night I stopped massaging during the in between 2 minute breaks (since I do pump and release 10:2). Only because I don't respond to massage anyways (although I'm still doing the 10 minutes before to warm it up) but I find the massaging for 2 minutes part to be the most annoying part of it because I get cocoa butter on my mousepad and have to constantly reapply it if I take the cups off. So last night I tried to just release the pressure for the two minutes but leave the cups on. Not because I think I'll get better results like that but because I don't think I'll get worse results like that and it looks like I'll be in this for the long haul and might even have to increase my hours so I might as well make it less annoying and intrusive to my life so I don't wind up hating it. I don't really mind it at all right now considering I can do other things while I'm doing it on my computer but with the stop and massage for two minutes every 10 minutes thing and get cocoa butter everywhere it becomes a lot more intrusive. If I was actually someone who responded to massage I'd keep it up but I don't so I feel like it's probably not making a difference but it is the only thing causing me to find pumping a bit annoying. So now I do 10-15 minutes of heat. 10 minutes of massage. Pump and release 10:2 (but keep the cups on just release all of the pressure) for an hour. Then 10-15 minutes of heat again. And I repeat that three times a day. I've only done it that way once so far and I didn't notice a negative difference but I did find it made it a lot less annoying to me.