(02-09-2019, 06:14 AM)Dark_Swan Wrote: I don't go out., wear makeup, dress up, meet people, date and don't hang out with friends as often as I use to.
I kind of just want to get big boobs first. My hair and skin are also so awful and I have put on some weight too. It's like I don't want to do normal everyday things until I am "my normal self" or "pretty".
What's your take on this?
I feel similar. I feel ugly as a whole because of my breasts. I stay home most of the time now, too. Now that it's getting cold outside I have started to wear jeans again. I was wearing sweat pants all Summer no matter where I went. I spent a lot of time with my friend during the Summer, I was at his place almost every day and didn't have much time to feel bad. I joined a gym and went there every other day. Now we are on partial lockdown again and I am sitting at home, unemployed and miserable. I was at my friend's house Saturday and then his guy friends announced that they were coming over so he sent me home. Well he asked if I wanted to take the train this or the next hour, but I could tell he wanted me to leave right away before they were arriving. I feel that he sent me home because I am too ugly to be seen by them.
I never wear nice things. In fact, I ordered lots of clothes off ebay last year for when I will feel good enough to be wearing them. The boxes are standing around, in my apartment and in the basement and I don't feel worthy of wearing them. And frankly I don't even care about unpacking them. I will "in the future".
It's good to know that I am not the only one even though I wish you'd feel better about yourself!