[blessedbreasts]

Today's my birthday. I took a step back and looked at my life, and realized I really shouldn't be so negative... or negative at all, really. I have no enemies and in fact have nothing but friends and loved ones who are crazy about me. I have a good job, a new life, and a future that's looking like it could include things I didn't think I'd ever get to experience. The past few months have had me doing things I never thought I'd do. I think God's trying to show me that I have his favor and I need to just rely on him and not let my negative mind and assumptions worry me and get in the way of him working.

Another thing my birthday usually makes me think of is how much I want to take care of myself. The things I've been struggling with lately are sleep (okay, that's not a "lately" thing) and eating enough. I caved and ordered a mattress the other night when, at 1:00 in the morning, I still wasn't asleep because my futon felt so uncomfortable. So hopefully the sleep thing will work itself out once I actually have a bed with a mattress. The eating thing is something I need to throw more effort and time into. I realized today that a meal plan always works best for me, so here's what I'm thinking right now:

Breakfast - Fruit, two poached eggs, oatmeal, tea, milk

Lunch - Green smoothie (my brother and sister-in-law got me a blender for my birthday!), some sort of protein. Still brainstorming this one. I might do a homemade personal-sized whole grain veggie pizza with goat cheese and mozzarella on it. Not sure. And tea. Always tea.

Dinner - Stew with salad and good bread, or roasted vegetables with fish or meat and tea. On the weekends I'll make and eat a Nigella Lawson recipe.

Snack - Yogurt or kefir and nuts with dried fruit

Another big goal I have for this new year of my life, aside from getting a boyfriend, is to learn to appreciate and trust myself.

And as for NBE, I'm feeling ready to start taking some risks. I'm going to do some things I've never tried before.