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Okay! I'm sure you're all eager to hear how things went with the boy. Here's a full report:

He wasn't there.

Down to NBE and diet business. I'm going to start putting more pressure on myself to eat enough at meals throughout the day. Today I barely ate because I was so busy and I felt horrible and I was worried I'd faint at one point. It would have been during a super inopportune time, too, where I happened to be around people who were meeting me for the first time. I would have ruined everything.

My problem lately has been that I feel really uncomfortable when I eat because my stomach has shrunk so much. So I don't want to eat enough. Not even because I want a small waist anymore; purely because eating enough makes me feel uncomfortable. So annoying. I mentally can't get past it. I've lost interest even in really yummy food lately as a result.

I'm going to have to fight through it mentally. And maybe it will help if I have more of my favorite foods handy.

This is so embarrassing, but a child made me feel a little bad about my body today. A child. I know how pitiful that is, but I can't help it. Her grandmother gestured to me and said, "You're going to be built like that when you grow up" because the girl is quite slim. Well, the little girl got this disapproving look on her face and said "...no. I want at least a little weight on me." Yikes...

Still no luteal swelling. Praying I'm not in luteal already and this is the best I can do this month. I'm not filling my bras out like I was. I'm going to do my best to do my evening massage routine around 6:00 (I usually do it at 8:00). I feel like that will better ensure I get the routine in.

ok so thats a disapointment he wasnt there!

re food. well ive been following Dr Natasha Campbell Mc'bride. to the point i brought her book which is really expensive! Long story short i buy into everything she says... its all about healing inflammatory diseases and sibo and the likes.

with out boring you stupid one thing she makes clear, its all about gut instinct and "how you feel about what you want to eat" (regarding healthy foods, meat, veggies, good fat etc)

if you arent hungry DONT EAT... if you do you are making your body create enzymes etc etc to digest this food you dont feel like.. when you read it , it makes so much sense. Your creating a strain on your body and enzymes are precious esp as we age. If you dont feel like eating, then your body doesnt need it. Dont eat because you feel you have to!
If you feel like full fat bacon, eat it - your body might need to saturated fat.
If you feel like ONLY a big green salad, then your body might need the green enzyme cleansing effect.

You see where im going with this...

I used to force glasses and glases of water down me BECAUSE other people said i must drink at least 2 liters a day! but that made/makes me feel bloated and aweful. Reaosn being it puts pressure on your kidneys and can cause problems.
Im just saying dont feel OBLIGUED to eat huge meals or whatever ya know because society says we MUST have 3 big meals a day.

ive been told our bigest meal must be lunch and NOT dinner cause digestion slows overnight... all things you learn..

Thanks for sharing, sis. You're absolutely right.

I've known about the small dinner thing since I was a kid, and it's a principle I live by pretty strictly. It's not only better for your body, but it's one of the best secrets for maintaining a trim waist. When I want to have a really small waist and concave stomach for an event, I skip dinner altogether the night before.