[blessedbreasts]

Today's intake:
66 ounces of water
Chips and vegetable dip
White cheddar Cheez-Its
Chili
Southwestern panini
Dark chocolate
Green tea
Sleepytime Tea

Took a multivitamin, cod liver oil, and probiotic.

I fasted until evening today.

Lately my intake hasn't been good. Whenever I'm not really in charge of dinner, healthy stuff usually doesn't get made. My dad brought me cake, even though I told him I'm not eating sweets (in his defense, he was somewhere where the people insisted he bring me some cake). And my avocados for my smoothies aren't ripe enough to use yet. Really frustrated with my diet at the moment.

I've been good about my massage, at least.

I can feel myself getting a little frustrated with this whole process. I need to remind myself of why I'm doing this. Here are my reasons:

1. I want to feel sexy for once in my life. I feel totally unsexy and gross in general. Having bigger breasts will make me feel more womanly and sexy.

2. I want big breasts and a pretty face. A lot of girls focus on their behinds nowadays, but I want big breasts that bring attention to the front of me and thus to my face, my eyes, my smile.

3. I've always liked breasts. It just makes sense to have the best pair I can possibly get.

4. When I get married and have babies, I want my children to take comfort in being able to bury their heads in a pillowy, soft pair of breasts and fall asleep whenever Mommy holds them, like I did with my mom.

5. I want something that makes me stand out a little more. I need all the help I can get where that's concerned.

I will do my best to keep avoiding sweets, drinking my avocado smoothies, and making the healthiest choices I can with what's available to me food-wise. The 13th will mark a month being back at NBE for me. I'll tweak my routine a bit then.