[dddreams]

No, I definitely don't think you are crazy and I am of course sorry that you are going through a tough time.
Also, let me point out that I think you look great from your photos. I am sure a lot of people are jealous of your figure.
I hope that things get better for you. And I know that it's difficult on a forum to truly interpret what other people are saying. When you write things down, they can come out so different from what you intend to say. If you met me in real life, I don't think you would think that I was a bitch or anything. So it is probably best not to take things on board too much (unless of course someone is being overtly abusive).
Whether you leave or not, or just decide not to post for a while, good luck and I hope that when you become pregnant you enjoy that time.