[AquaA]

Yeah I think he's just toying with me so that I don't move on. I genuinely think he loves me but I don't think he knows how to express it or deal with it. He was in a 5 year relationship before and he was also constantly on and off and always fighting. Also for the past year he's been living in a different country and he's too broke to come and see me so that just added to our problems.

Ella I'm trying to give this new guy my all because unlike the other ones I've dated/rebounded I actually really do like him and get along with him so much. But the minute my ex messages me, everything else just stops and I'm back to ground Zero and become an emotional mess. After I recover from that and start distracting myself and not thinking about him, he does it again! I tried to not reply to him, I tried to delete him, he just always gets me. I just feel like if we are in the same country again everything will work out, that's the hope I'm holding on to. Even though he's not planning on moving back any time soon. I think we are just two people that met and loved each other in the wrong time and the wrong place.

Be as harsh as you can Ella, I need a slap on the face to wake me up from this fairy tale that I'm hoping for in my head.