05-10-2011, 11:30 PM
Hi all.
I think I probably fit some sort of pattern...
59 years old, struggled with GID(?) my whole life. Earliest experience of crossdressing about 13, caught by mother trying on her stockings. Fascinated by the "drag" scene that erupted in the late 60's and continued to experiment up until I met my wife to be. Confessed my "problem" before we married and tried hard to control it, but whenever an opportunity arose... took it.
Wife was reasonably accommodating but always felt self-disgust which resulted, I believe, in deep-rooted angst.
In recent years, having seen a description of the controversial term "autogynephilia" I have to admit it describes me exactly. It's not about clothes, it's about being female up until the minute that climax is achieved, then - I'm "normal" at least for a few hours.
One of the things about getting older is that the image in the mirror is so repulsive that it is easier to avoid crossdressing :-)
Anyway, I heard about PM and have always been obsessed with owning a pair of breasts (I have quite large nipples through constant tweaking) so decided to go for it (with wife's agreement).
As other's have experienced, wondrously, after two weeks I no longer have a compulsive need to "self abuse" (that shows my age!) and there are definite buds building up.
Possibly I have started on too high a dose at 3g/day, so I'm going to lay off for a while and see what happens.
Err... that's it for now.
B.
I think I probably fit some sort of pattern...
59 years old, struggled with GID(?) my whole life. Earliest experience of crossdressing about 13, caught by mother trying on her stockings. Fascinated by the "drag" scene that erupted in the late 60's and continued to experiment up until I met my wife to be. Confessed my "problem" before we married and tried hard to control it, but whenever an opportunity arose... took it.
Wife was reasonably accommodating but always felt self-disgust which resulted, I believe, in deep-rooted angst.
In recent years, having seen a description of the controversial term "autogynephilia" I have to admit it describes me exactly. It's not about clothes, it's about being female up until the minute that climax is achieved, then - I'm "normal" at least for a few hours.
One of the things about getting older is that the image in the mirror is so repulsive that it is easier to avoid crossdressing :-)
Anyway, I heard about PM and have always been obsessed with owning a pair of breasts (I have quite large nipples through constant tweaking) so decided to go for it (with wife's agreement).
As other's have experienced, wondrously, after two weeks I no longer have a compulsive need to "self abuse" (that shows my age!) and there are definite buds building up.
Possibly I have started on too high a dose at 3g/day, so I'm going to lay off for a while and see what happens.
Err... that's it for now.
B.