[myboobs]

So, I broke down tonight.

I decided to go bra shopping to find one that fits me. It's so upsetting looking at myself in bras I don't fill out and I thought it'd boost my confidence if I had one that flattered me. Well I found a 32A, which is what I THOUGHT would fit me perfectly. Not to mention, also the smallest bra size available in stores. Didn't fit! Still had gapping up top in my cups and the strap was still riding up. I bawled my eyes out to my husband. The smallest bra available and doesn't fit! My self esteem definitely took yet another nose dive tonight. I hate everything about myself. I don't want to but I have no idea how to change that. I feel like my body is ruined. Built like a stick...no curves, tiny breasts, saggy breasts, too skinny, stretch marks...I just want to feel sexy in my own skin again. Is that too much to ask? I look in the mirror, and just cry. Tonight was the first night I actually started to consider implants.

My hubby said he'd take me bra shopping again tomorrow. He thinks the bra I got just had weird extra padding that didn't suit me. I'm doubtful.

I'm just really hating my lack of curves and over abundance of stretch marks lately. Sorry for the major negative rant. Just feeling down.

First and foremost look at positives . 1) you have a loving partner. 2) you have good base for your boob growth. 3) you have waist to kill for .
Negatives ? You are not happy about your curves which with time and patience is fixable . Patience is name of game .
Concentrate on all things positive in life.