So much to up-date on...!
....Glad to be back in the game
As the title of this post says, there has been a lot going on with me. Last I mentioned, I was on those antiandrogens and was sooo sleepy. Then work got nutso and I started missing my doses because of it. Sometimes I'd miss the entire day. That threw me into short-lasting energy spurts and then crashing energy lows again. A total mess. And these sleeping problems only contributed to my missing doses more.
Unlike my first program (Chiyomilk-style), during this program I would have achy tender and heavy breasts during ALL of my luteal phases. This is the most sensation I have felt since the very first luteal phase I went on pig placenta before I began taking PM. So? That is huge news for me! So I know, although it may be in very small increments, it IS doing SOMETHING.
----------HOWEVER-----------
For the last cycle and a half (approximately), as I have been missing my doses during these times, my breast tenderness was a lot more subtle during my last luteal phase. My bad. At least I know why. And at least I know I can make it right again.
So there is more than one reason to make sure my doses are taken regularly:
1) Eventual normalization of my sleeping patterns
2) Better chances at future growth by keeping the hormones regular
.........so this is my new goal which I started yesterday. I am looking forward to feeling sore during my luteal phase again!
So, I quit my job (I have long awaited this day) and have been accepted into grad school to Australia's #1 Ivy League school! I was accepted into the program which I have been wanting to get into since 2004... so yeah, you could say that this is my dream career. I couldn't be happier with my life right now. I felt *stuck* for so long, knowing I had so much more potential, but did not know which way to go. So, I think this is a huge reason for me being motivated again!
So..... Now that I will be moving to live in Australia for the next two years, I am looking at my program and, with my EXTREMELY tight budget at the moment (remember I quit my job about a month ago, and I am dishing out what money I have left to cover paperwork processing fees for going to grad school abroad), am trying to figure out what to do! I was considering tossing my BO and antiandrogens altogether simply because I do not have the money, but couldn't toss in the towel altogether for the next two years so was planning on going noogleberry-solo (because it would be $0 for me to do that program!). BUTTTTT when my ex volunteered today that I was definitely bigger than I was a few months ago (!!!), I am reevaluating my options. This is pretty significant, because there have been only 3 times that my ex said he noticed growth (and he is VERY observant, more so than I): 1) when I changed my diet over a year ago and my boobs did grow some as a result 2) when I snoogled almost every day for maybe a month before I started my Chiyomilk program and was getting a good deal of swelling, and 2) NOW! This is the first time as a result of herbs alone that he noticed a significant change.
...Not to mention that I tried on a 32C bra that I bought back in August before I started my program and I was spilling out over the top a bit (whereas in August when I tried it on for fun, I fit it but I did not fill it--there were no gaps, but it wasn't skin tight with a little boob spilling out on top). I honestly don't see or feel a difference myself and my regular-wear bras show no change, but is it possible that as I slooooooowly grow, my bras are keeping up with me and slowly stretching out? It's possible, I DO wear the same two bras all the time
Regardless, I have made up my mind to not give up on the BO yet and figure out a way to make it happen even on a tight budget.
------------I am thinking about coercing my ex to buy them for me and I will pay him later when I get out of school. No, seriously. No one else would support me in this other than him...
But as a result of this reevaluation process in which I considered different ways in which I can reintroduce the NB to my program, AND in result to being preeeeeeeeeetty certain that the BO and antiandrogens are doing something for me, I think I will be including the NB regularly to my program in the first week of March (I did not want to pick up the NB again until I knew I was being helped by the herbs and BO I was taking. I did not want the initial, unavoidable swelling from the NB to mask any possible progress from the herbs, so that I could truly know if this herbal program was good or another one to bite the dust). Additionally, this is the first week of classes at grad school in Australia. I am hoping to develop a routine while in Australia where I will make using the NB a habit while I study. A new routine for a new location. I am going to start as soon as my classes do, that way I ingrain it into my schedule.
So, in conclusion: Going to stick with the BO program. It has been the only program to make me sore with re-occurance, and my ex even said he definitely noticed a change. Going to introduce the noogleberry to this BO program soon in another cycle-and-a-half (first week of March, so that I may see for this time if I do resume the soreness to confirm the BO and antiandrogens' effectiveness).
....Glad to be back in the game
As the title of this post says, there has been a lot going on with me. Last I mentioned, I was on those antiandrogens and was sooo sleepy. Then work got nutso and I started missing my doses because of it. Sometimes I'd miss the entire day. That threw me into short-lasting energy spurts and then crashing energy lows again. A total mess. And these sleeping problems only contributed to my missing doses more.
Unlike my first program (Chiyomilk-style), during this program I would have achy tender and heavy breasts during ALL of my luteal phases. This is the most sensation I have felt since the very first luteal phase I went on pig placenta before I began taking PM. So? That is huge news for me! So I know, although it may be in very small increments, it IS doing SOMETHING.
----------HOWEVER-----------
For the last cycle and a half (approximately), as I have been missing my doses during these times, my breast tenderness was a lot more subtle during my last luteal phase. My bad. At least I know why. And at least I know I can make it right again.
So there is more than one reason to make sure my doses are taken regularly:
1) Eventual normalization of my sleeping patterns
2) Better chances at future growth by keeping the hormones regular
.........so this is my new goal which I started yesterday. I am looking forward to feeling sore during my luteal phase again!
So, I quit my job (I have long awaited this day) and have been accepted into grad school to Australia's #1 Ivy League school! I was accepted into the program which I have been wanting to get into since 2004... so yeah, you could say that this is my dream career. I couldn't be happier with my life right now. I felt *stuck* for so long, knowing I had so much more potential, but did not know which way to go. So, I think this is a huge reason for me being motivated again!
So..... Now that I will be moving to live in Australia for the next two years, I am looking at my program and, with my EXTREMELY tight budget at the moment (remember I quit my job about a month ago, and I am dishing out what money I have left to cover paperwork processing fees for going to grad school abroad), am trying to figure out what to do! I was considering tossing my BO and antiandrogens altogether simply because I do not have the money, but couldn't toss in the towel altogether for the next two years so was planning on going noogleberry-solo (because it would be $0 for me to do that program!). BUTTTTT when my ex volunteered today that I was definitely bigger than I was a few months ago (!!!), I am reevaluating my options. This is pretty significant, because there have been only 3 times that my ex said he noticed growth (and he is VERY observant, more so than I): 1) when I changed my diet over a year ago and my boobs did grow some as a result 2) when I snoogled almost every day for maybe a month before I started my Chiyomilk program and was getting a good deal of swelling, and 2) NOW! This is the first time as a result of herbs alone that he noticed a significant change.
...Not to mention that I tried on a 32C bra that I bought back in August before I started my program and I was spilling out over the top a bit (whereas in August when I tried it on for fun, I fit it but I did not fill it--there were no gaps, but it wasn't skin tight with a little boob spilling out on top). I honestly don't see or feel a difference myself and my regular-wear bras show no change, but is it possible that as I slooooooowly grow, my bras are keeping up with me and slowly stretching out? It's possible, I DO wear the same two bras all the time
Regardless, I have made up my mind to not give up on the BO yet and figure out a way to make it happen even on a tight budget.------------I am thinking about coercing my ex to buy them for me and I will pay him later when I get out of school. No, seriously. No one else would support me in this other than him...
But as a result of this reevaluation process in which I considered different ways in which I can reintroduce the NB to my program, AND in result to being preeeeeeeeeetty certain that the BO and antiandrogens are doing something for me, I think I will be including the NB regularly to my program in the first week of March (I did not want to pick up the NB again until I knew I was being helped by the herbs and BO I was taking. I did not want the initial, unavoidable swelling from the NB to mask any possible progress from the herbs, so that I could truly know if this herbal program was good or another one to bite the dust). Additionally, this is the first week of classes at grad school in Australia. I am hoping to develop a routine while in Australia where I will make using the NB a habit while I study. A new routine for a new location. I am going to start as soon as my classes do, that way I ingrain it into my schedule.
So, in conclusion: Going to stick with the BO program. It has been the only program to make me sore with re-occurance, and my ex even said he definitely noticed a change. Going to introduce the noogleberry to this BO program soon in another cycle-and-a-half (first week of March, so that I may see for this time if I do resume the soreness to confirm the BO and antiandrogens' effectiveness).