[Missed Miss]

Not too young for catching your Pink reference hahaha sooo funny I used to love that song lol! So Risqué.

If I made one, I can't find it! Do you mean "Let your fingers do the walking?" That was the phrase used by the phone company when they advertised that people should use their phone book, "Let your fingers do the walking though the Yellow Pages." But, in this case, I was using it as a sexual reference.

My doctor gave me remeron which will help my sleep, it is an anti anxiety. She wouldn't give me the wellbutrin with it but I think I will still end up needing it in 4 weeks.

I'm trying not to be upset about this thing but I feel so played and like he doesn't even know what he's done to me. Thinking about it makes me upset, I hate people who make me feel this way. I want to confront him but maybe it wouldn't do any good. Or maybe he at least wouldn't do it to someone else. He's just making me feel like I'm not good enough, but he is the one who isn't good enough for me. I wish I had a punching bag.

Got a set of drums nearby? Go ahead and have a good bash!! They have stickers you can stick to the bowl of your toilet. You should get one that's a picture of him and try to hit it every time you go!! If you can't already, I can teach you how to pee standing up! Having his face in there will give you better target practice!!
In late `06, the day after Christmas, I finally got Kelly back, at least for a few days, then her hubby made her stop talking to me again and I SERIOUSLY wanted to kill him!!!!! I went outside and walked the streets aimlessly hoping to think of or find something I could beat the fuck out of in place of his witless head!! Sadly, I couldn't find anything!! It was late at night, so I couldn't go downstairs and play drums. I never DID get that frustration and hate out, but it just kinda faded away, however, he's STILL a raging asshole, especially towards her and their kids!!!! She probably wants him dead more than I do!!!!

Like fuck. Why do I have to sit here and try to hold back balling my eyes out while he goes on his merry way. Do I confront him??

You don't!! Go ahead and cry your eyes out, girl!! It'll make you feel better!! :-) Get a pillow you don't care about anymore and pretend it's him and beat the living shit out of it as you let yourself cry and get it all out!! Obviously, unless you plan to beat the shit out of him, he's not WORTH confronting!!

I hope the remeron works as an anti-depressant too. This sucks.

I'll BET!! Music helps! Get the right kind and it's better than ANY drugs!!!! :-)