[StephaniNicole]

Well it looks like the 38 was just swelling! That sucks, but I'm not giving up. Even if I don't get to 45, I still would like to even both out.
I've been doing the honey drops randomly throughout the day. I usually just do it a bunch within a short period of time. I'll do a drop, and then wait till it stops burning, and then I'll put in more. It burnss. D: But I'm hoping for results soon.
Didn't have that great of a night with the boyfriend. Sometimes I feel like I don't really matter to him. I hate that I'm such an insecure person, it makes everything hard. I just feel unwanted sometimes, you ever feel that way? There's just this awful pressure that sits on your chest and crushes your lungs every time you breathe.. It's like a leech that sucks the life and motivation out of me..
I'm sorry for the down post. Feeling kind of down right now.. :\