09-12-2012, 06:22
Welp, I've switched BCPs to another triphasic which has less androgenic activity (from Triphasil to Ortho-tricyclen) and nothing has changed. Acne still bad, skin still dry, hair not going away, and body odor getting worse. I've gained 10-15 pounds in the last 6 months and I would bet that it's related to the hormones. I want to quit the pills because pretty much the only good thing that's come out of this has been my breasts getting a bit fatter, but I don't care how big they are if they still have this shape.
I don't want to go on an antiandrogen because generally when people come off an antiandrogen the androgenic effects return stronger than ever, and I'm not quite ready to give up on my body's capacity to balance itself.
I haven't been taking any nutritional supplements since I started school in August, and I didn't actually bring back the PC until my current cycle. I'll start back on all of those when I go home next week. In a week or two I'll also start Lamictal for type 2 bipolar. The most I'm hoping for is that the lamictal will help me deal with stress and lose weight and stop the appetite problems, and the vitamins could help with my skin and odor and eyebrow loss. (Don't know if I've mentioned it before, but since spring, eyebrows have been falling from the inner parts of my eyebrows.)
It's kind of funny, my self-esteem has gotten so poor, especially over the last six months, that I don't worry about my breasts much anymore. Because I've ceased to feel like they could ever be the thing that deters me from being involved in an intimate relationship - just a drop in the bucket among the things that make me feel unattractive and unworthy. Sex is well, well, well off the table for me, and the implicit expectation of sex as well as my anxiety about relationships in general put any intimate relationships off the table.
I realize this thread/journal has sort of ceased to be about breasts, but it's just because no progress has happened and I don't see it happening. One day I may go to someone who has knowledge of hormone therapy for underdeveloped breasts but I don't know how I'll do that since my health care is mediated by my parents due to insurance and the difficulty I have communicating with people and managing myself.
I don't want to go on an antiandrogen because generally when people come off an antiandrogen the androgenic effects return stronger than ever, and I'm not quite ready to give up on my body's capacity to balance itself.
I haven't been taking any nutritional supplements since I started school in August, and I didn't actually bring back the PC until my current cycle. I'll start back on all of those when I go home next week. In a week or two I'll also start Lamictal for type 2 bipolar. The most I'm hoping for is that the lamictal will help me deal with stress and lose weight and stop the appetite problems, and the vitamins could help with my skin and odor and eyebrow loss. (Don't know if I've mentioned it before, but since spring, eyebrows have been falling from the inner parts of my eyebrows.)
It's kind of funny, my self-esteem has gotten so poor, especially over the last six months, that I don't worry about my breasts much anymore. Because I've ceased to feel like they could ever be the thing that deters me from being involved in an intimate relationship - just a drop in the bucket among the things that make me feel unattractive and unworthy. Sex is well, well, well off the table for me, and the implicit expectation of sex as well as my anxiety about relationships in general put any intimate relationships off the table.
I realize this thread/journal has sort of ceased to be about breasts, but it's just because no progress has happened and I don't see it happening. One day I may go to someone who has knowledge of hormone therapy for underdeveloped breasts but I don't know how I'll do that since my health care is mediated by my parents due to insurance and the difficulty I have communicating with people and managing myself.