[GoGoBoob]

hi,
I´ve been breastfeeding two children, too, and it really takes some time (a year) until they are finally dry again. Don´t tease your breasts too much. Just give them time to dry out.
Regarding the other problem (your hubby)... when I was younger I would have said that he´s supposed to love you just how you are but when becoming older I have had the great insight that all of us have things we like more or less. It´s nothing we do on purpose or to hurt people. It´s just there. It´s just not okay to rub it right under your nose (how we say over here). Anyhow, avoid to come down the needy road. Men hate that. Show confidence no matter how things look inside of you.
Good luck on the booby journey.

Thanks for the advice. Yes, I think I will have to wait longer before starting NBE. It seems like I'm still lactating and now have more milk since I first started massaging my breasts. The Ainterol PM came yesterday and I didn't even open it. I also stopped massaging my breasts. I guess I'm just going to focus on getting healthy and in shape.

When I write about my personal life, they are my true feelings and wishful thinking. But these feelings are hardly shown to my spouse. I show more confidence than the little amount that I have left. When we first got married, I was clingy and needy. He pushed me away so many times that I just gave up. I decided if he wants to be with me, that'll be great. If he didn't, that'll be great too. At least we're both happy that's all that really matters. Sure, I'd be hurt, but life moves on and there will be other men out there. Now, I tell him that if he finds a woman he'd be happy with, then please just leave. I don't want to be married and unhappy or cheated on. Although my self esteem is low, I still have my pride.