[AbiDrew85]

AbiDrew you strike me as the least judgemental person I have spoken to in a long time and just want to help people regardless. You are optimistic no matter what and so clever.

Aww. Thank you, but I'm not so sure of the optimism... it's more just plain mule-headed stubbornness I think.

I don't know, life is hard, we are often struggling but my beliefs are that we choose our life before we come into the world and that includes the trials that ensure the growth of our souls.

More plus-plusing! I am absolutely certain I chose what I'm going through. There's no way I'm a mistake. Or a "simple" mutation. Or whatever. God had a nice little sit down with me before sending me down here and said, "Look, Abi, I have a mission for you, it'll hurt a lot lot more than most, but if you take it..." And I took it. I actually wrote a poem about this a while back... Well. More a psalm. But I don't think it'd be appropriate to paste the entire thing in here, it's kinda long - like 550 words or so, but I could link to it: http://bigclosetr.us/topshelf/fiction/32206/01-if-i-could-but-hie-kolob

I still don't know WHY I'm going through this, nor what my reward will be... but that doesn't matter. What matters is that yes, we each chose our lives, and whatever trials we each face, whatever mission He has for us. We chose to take it. It's up to us to take what we've been given and come out of it greater than we went in.

How exactly NBE fits into this... That's for you - each individually - to decide. For me, it's about helping the world to see the beautiful feminine soul inside. God gave me my body. He also gave me my brain. He also gave me all the wonderful tools at my disposal. It would be wrong not to take advantage of every gift I've been given. That includes NBE