...I don't know what I just stumbled into, but these stories and life lessons are about to bring tears to my eyes!!! 
THIS. This explains me exactly. I've been so depressed lately, caught up in all this mess. Worrying about if this is it, are my boobs done growing for good now? Am I just wasting money? Is my butt done growing, too? Why won't my stomach pudge going away, I'm doing everything right. I'm so worried about ever reaching my dream body that I've completely lost sight of everything amazing I've accomplished so far through this. I thought NBE would be a spiritual growing process for me, but instead, I've gone the other way and become even more shallow about my appearance. Today I got hit on by a girl at a pizza parlor. She called me "beautiful". I'm so down on myself, come out into public looking a hot mess and this stranger can call me beautiful. What am I missing here? Why can't I see this at all? There's so much more to me than my body, and for some reason, when I look into a mirror, all I ever feel is disgust. I've actually thoroughly considered taking a break from NBE for a while just to try to get things in perspective. However, I'm stubborn, and determined, so I don't know that I'll ever stop going after this perfect body I see in my head. It's really tearing me down. The worst part is, this is all on top of the depression I already have from my current living situation.
But, after reading all this, I'm really starting to think differently about this already. I really should be doing this for myself, not for my appearance. This should be a personal goal, not just the necessity to fit in. I need to figure out what I really want, not what society wants. Because I know that no matter what, my mind will constantly be changing, and I'll keep finding something wrong with my body. I'll wake up some days and want a voluptuous, curvy body. Then some days, I'll wake up and wish I was petite like a cute, small Asian girl. And other days, I'll wake up wishing I was never female to begin with. But wanting these things in the short term doesn't mean they will ever be reality, and I need to just start learning to love what I've been given to live in.
You girls really have put so much more thought into the spiritual aspect of this, and I really think that's where I've been missing out. I need to stop measuring my worth by my body measurements. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
NotSoBusty Wrote:I just want a nice rack to balance out my body. My lack of boobs takes its toll on my entire self-image. I feel fat, and I am self conscious about various parts of my body because they aren't matched by my boobs. It's like a chain reaction that all starts with my breasts.
THIS. This explains me exactly. I've been so depressed lately, caught up in all this mess. Worrying about if this is it, are my boobs done growing for good now? Am I just wasting money? Is my butt done growing, too? Why won't my stomach pudge going away, I'm doing everything right. I'm so worried about ever reaching my dream body that I've completely lost sight of everything amazing I've accomplished so far through this. I thought NBE would be a spiritual growing process for me, but instead, I've gone the other way and become even more shallow about my appearance. Today I got hit on by a girl at a pizza parlor. She called me "beautiful". I'm so down on myself, come out into public looking a hot mess and this stranger can call me beautiful. What am I missing here? Why can't I see this at all? There's so much more to me than my body, and for some reason, when I look into a mirror, all I ever feel is disgust. I've actually thoroughly considered taking a break from NBE for a while just to try to get things in perspective. However, I'm stubborn, and determined, so I don't know that I'll ever stop going after this perfect body I see in my head. It's really tearing me down. The worst part is, this is all on top of the depression I already have from my current living situation.
But, after reading all this, I'm really starting to think differently about this already. I really should be doing this for myself, not for my appearance. This should be a personal goal, not just the necessity to fit in. I need to figure out what I really want, not what society wants. Because I know that no matter what, my mind will constantly be changing, and I'll keep finding something wrong with my body. I'll wake up some days and want a voluptuous, curvy body. Then some days, I'll wake up and wish I was petite like a cute, small Asian girl. And other days, I'll wake up wishing I was never female to begin with. But wanting these things in the short term doesn't mean they will ever be reality, and I need to just start learning to love what I've been given to live in.
You girls really have put so much more thought into the spiritual aspect of this, and I really think that's where I've been missing out. I need to stop measuring my worth by my body measurements. Thank you, thank you, thank you.