13-09-2012, 03:09
Hi busty!
I'm so sorry you were low for a little while there! I completely feel for you and what you wrote. I think some days I'm generally more anxious, and it often shows in my self-esteem and thoughts about my body. It can be pretty awful, especially if you have no one to vent to (thank goodness for this forum
). I think my anxiety is pretty much just chemically decided in the brain, not necessarily that my boobs really are THAT small that the world is gonna end, you know? I've had to work pretty hard on my self-esteem these past few months, and I've understood so much more and feel so much better in general, but some days I'm right back down to where I started and no amount of trying to think and reason with myself will make it sink in on those days.
of course you've heard the saying "your body is your temple". As in it houses something much greater than the temple itself, and because of that, one should take care of and honor one's temple by being healthy etc, and even decorating it (with boobs if one can!
).
Thinking this way it is easier to understand that in fact, your body is such a gift. You literally lucked out with your body (and you, sexy mama you, definitely lucked out
), and far beyond looks it does some really really incredible things. Even something simple that my feet carry me every day, or all the processes that go on without me even knowing is mind blowing, a lot of which scientists have no clue about.
I still want boobs now, just for the sake of having a proportionate body like you say, but i'm less about getting boobs because if I don't I am less worth than some woman with big boobs. But like you, lately I've been pretty low with my self-esteem, and I tend to forget that... ugh. Must be something in the air
Anyways, I hope you don't mind my babbling!!
I'm so sorry you were low for a little while there! I completely feel for you and what you wrote. I think some days I'm generally more anxious, and it often shows in my self-esteem and thoughts about my body. It can be pretty awful, especially if you have no one to vent to (thank goodness for this forum
). I think my anxiety is pretty much just chemically decided in the brain, not necessarily that my boobs really are THAT small that the world is gonna end, you know? I've had to work pretty hard on my self-esteem these past few months, and I've understood so much more and feel so much better in general, but some days I'm right back down to where I started and no amount of trying to think and reason with myself will make it sink in on those days.Quote:I love NBE, but some days it takes it's toll. I am working on my self esteem and really trying to chalk myself up to more than my bra size.have you heard of the saying "we are not human beings having a spiritual experience. We are spiritual beings having a human experience" ? I don't know if you believe in a soul or spirit, but I find it very helpful to think in this way, as in I am not my body, I am a spirit/soul/consciousness within a body. As in, I am sooooooo much more than my body. In fact infinitely more than my body, more than I can even realize. But I think people tend to identify themselves with their body, and believe that their personal value is based on how they look (that's what I've had a tendency to think at least) . And this is of course has a lot to do with our very shallow society. Like you say, you are not your bra size. You are an amazing woman, but even more than that, you are an infinitely amazing being!
of course you've heard the saying "your body is your temple". As in it houses something much greater than the temple itself, and because of that, one should take care of and honor one's temple by being healthy etc, and even decorating it (with boobs if one can!
). Thinking this way it is easier to understand that in fact, your body is such a gift. You literally lucked out with your body (and you, sexy mama you, definitely lucked out
), and far beyond looks it does some really really incredible things. Even something simple that my feet carry me every day, or all the processes that go on without me even knowing is mind blowing, a lot of which scientists have no clue about. I still want boobs now, just for the sake of having a proportionate body like you say, but i'm less about getting boobs because if I don't I am less worth than some woman with big boobs. But like you, lately I've been pretty low with my self-esteem, and I tend to forget that... ugh. Must be something in the air
Anyways, I hope you don't mind my babbling!!