[Rosance]

I must reply because I am pissed off. Screw the effin feelings you have for him. Can't you not see you are such a loving person? How many freaking women do you think would stand such an ahole?! Not many. Take your awesome uniqueness to someone who gives a dam about it; and those boobs too...haha Marry him after telling you that you'll be waiting a long time?! It sounds like you were proposing and he was rejecting you. Why be with someone who rejects you that badly? Trust me girl, and I know you know, you have a lot of love. One of the worst things about life is to seek for someone to love you when you do not know what love is; it is better to give than receive. He was just looking for someone give a dam about him, he does not know how to love. Getting with someone who does not know how to love, and is already an adult, I'm sorry, but it really is the worst thing a loving person can do. Because then this happens...suffering and pain. It does not mean it has to be like that. AS MUCH LOVE AS YOU HAD FOR HIM, YOU SHOULD HAVE MUCH MORE FOR YOURSELF. If you are capable of loving such an idiot, you can do more for yourself than you are doing. Stand up for your Self, for your love, for your health. This is your chance to be free of the pain he has caused all this time, do not cause pain to yourself now You are a wonderful person considering your ability to love, however, use that power wisely and don't let anyone take advantage of it including yourself. It is a beautiful feeling meant to cause beautiful actions.