28-06-2011, 07:09
Thanks for your suggestions, Crystalelle and MoK217. 
I've had this headache now for three months. But, I did finally get to see the actual DOCTOR last week instead of the worthless nurse practitioner guy (who knew nothing, and didn't help me at all). The doctor took one look at my CT scan and said that the nasal passages on my right side were nice and wide open from that surgery I had 13 years ago; but the passages on my left side were very constricted. He said that is likely causing pressure, or even a vacuum type of thing in my sinuses; and that's what my headache is from. He doesn't think I have an infection (which makes sense, since my nose itself isn't really stuffy or swollen like it has been in the past). He said there's a new technique, only about two years old, where they put a thin, flexible tube up into your nose and through the passages; and they inflate a balloon on the end of the tube to open up the narrow passages. Very similar to angioplasty, which is the same procedure done in blood vessels. I guess the studies done on this procedure are only a couple years old, but they're showing a 95% success rate. He's done about 4000 of these procedures already. So he got me scheduled for it. The problem is, the soonest they could get me in to do it is July 28th. *crying* 
So I gotta suffer with this stupid headache for ANOTHER month. This past weekend, the pain escalated to a level it hasn't been to before. I was nauseated from the pain. I had some Vicodin (strong prescription pain killer) left over from a past surgery, so I took two pills (maximum dose). And that BARELY took the pain down a notch. I didn't bother taking it the next day, because Vicodin makes me very nauseous if I take it a couple days in a row; plus, it didn't help that much. Fortunately, the pain was better today. The doctor said the weather can affect the pressure in the sinuses; it was stormy over the weekend. It's gonna be a LONG month.
I did start back up on my pills about 10 days ago. I couldn't stand waiting any more! Now that I know I'm not fighting an infection, I feel better about it. Physically, other than my headache, I feel almost OK. Even my acne is almost gone (yay!). I felt that my body was probably "used" to the regular dose of BB since I've been taking it since last June (OMG, a year already!), so I've been adding one Swanson BO (250mg) with each BB pill, for a total of 500mg extra BO plus the 1050mg of BB (525mg x 2) which is a daily total of 1550mg. That's still pretty low, considering what others are taking in their programs; so last night I added one more Swanson BO to my nighttime dose for a daily total of 1800mg (Swanson BO and BB). I also increased my Neocell collagen to the recommended 6 tablets per day; and I'm taking 5000mg of MSM per day as well. I'm still taking my Nature's Code multi-vitamins, which has 1000mg of Vitamin C; but I add about another 400mg of Vitamin C with my nighttime dose of collagen and MSM. Also, my Borage Oil softgels came in, so I started taking one per day a few days ago (they are 1000mg). I just saw that Wahaika recommends taking Borage Oil at bedtime, so I will be doing that from now on (I had been taking it when I first got up, like an hour after BB and BO). I also saw that Wahaika suggests that 1500mg of GABA is sufficient; I've only been taking 500mg, so I've bumped that up to 1000mg for now. Whew! Oh, and I'm trying to get in two protein drinks per day instead of one. But I'm still struggling to cut down on sugar. I love my chocolate too much. But I was good and didn't have ANY today.
My current shameful measurements are:
Under: 29 1/2"
Across: 32 1/2"
Above: 32 1/2"
Bra size: 34AAA
When I measure, I kinda exhale pretty much all the air out of my lungs, and hold it like that while I take all three measurements. I do it this way, because I found that if I breathed while measuring, I'd constantly get different readings; it would vary by as much as an inch, depending on how much my ribs were expanded from air in my lungs.
I gave up on NB. I just can't commit an hour every night when I'm so tired, for temporary results. NB seems to work best for women who are already a decent size, or who used to be larger at some point (like from breastfeeding). Those of us who have never been larger than we are now, and are like less than an AA cup struggle. I also quit listening to the Rockmelon ring tone. I just couldn't stand that annoying sound anymore, lol.
I don't know if the new doses of pills will work; but I do know that since I added that one extra Swanson BO last night, my breasts (the smaller right one, especially) have been pretty achy today. Mostly the upper half. Sometimes the right one ached a little underneath. I REALLY hope this works; because honestly, I'm getting really discouraged, and my self-esteem is plummeting again. I spent some time researching local plastic surgery places, and dreaming about what it would be like to wake up with breasts and look like a woman instead of a little boy. I really don't want to go there; but I'm so frustrated, and it's making me depressed. Trying to stay positive is sooo hard when all you see is cleavage everywhere you go, and here you are as flat as a board. I wish so much I could go back in time to when I was a teenager and fix everything that went wrong so I'd have a better chance of growing normally! It's so unfair to have both of your younger sisters be full B cups while you struggle to maintain a AAA. My husband really wishes I'd stop all this NBE stuff and not even consider surgery; but as long as there's a teeny little glimmer of hope that SOMETHING might work for me, there's no way I'm gonna stop. One little thing that brightened my day a little was when I was looking at "before" and "after" photos from a reputable plastic surgery place located very close to my home (only about 6 minutes away, actually), I saw that like 6 women out of the 100 or so that they had on their site looked EXACTLY like me in their "before" picture; I mean, like a AAA size. I was SHOCKED that there were *that* many local women like me! It brought me a little comfort knowing I'm not "the only one" around here who's this flat. Except now, those women have implants and are like a B or C cup, so hmmm, maybe I AM the only one this flat around here now. OK, comfort is gone!
Sorry for the vent. This past weekend was really bad for me, headache-wise and emotionally, because I was feeling so bad about myself. My rational self would never consider implants; but my desperate self would give anything to look like a woman instead of a young child. Sigh.
I've had this headache now for three months. But, I did finally get to see the actual DOCTOR last week instead of the worthless nurse practitioner guy (who knew nothing, and didn't help me at all). The doctor took one look at my CT scan and said that the nasal passages on my right side were nice and wide open from that surgery I had 13 years ago; but the passages on my left side were very constricted. He said that is likely causing pressure, or even a vacuum type of thing in my sinuses; and that's what my headache is from. He doesn't think I have an infection (which makes sense, since my nose itself isn't really stuffy or swollen like it has been in the past). He said there's a new technique, only about two years old, where they put a thin, flexible tube up into your nose and through the passages; and they inflate a balloon on the end of the tube to open up the narrow passages. Very similar to angioplasty, which is the same procedure done in blood vessels. I guess the studies done on this procedure are only a couple years old, but they're showing a 95% success rate. He's done about 4000 of these procedures already. So he got me scheduled for it. The problem is, the soonest they could get me in to do it is July 28th. *crying* So I gotta suffer with this stupid headache for ANOTHER month. This past weekend, the pain escalated to a level it hasn't been to before. I was nauseated from the pain. I had some Vicodin (strong prescription pain killer) left over from a past surgery, so I took two pills (maximum dose). And that BARELY took the pain down a notch. I didn't bother taking it the next day, because Vicodin makes me very nauseous if I take it a couple days in a row; plus, it didn't help that much. Fortunately, the pain was better today. The doctor said the weather can affect the pressure in the sinuses; it was stormy over the weekend. It's gonna be a LONG month.I did start back up on my pills about 10 days ago. I couldn't stand waiting any more! Now that I know I'm not fighting an infection, I feel better about it.
Physically, other than my headache, I feel almost OK. Even my acne is almost gone (yay!). I felt that my body was probably "used" to the regular dose of BB since I've been taking it since last June (OMG, a year already!), so I've been adding one Swanson BO (250mg) with each BB pill, for a total of 500mg extra BO plus the 1050mg of BB (525mg x 2) which is a daily total of 1550mg. That's still pretty low, considering what others are taking in their programs; so last night I added one more Swanson BO to my nighttime dose for a daily total of 1800mg (Swanson BO and BB). I also increased my Neocell collagen to the recommended 6 tablets per day; and I'm taking 5000mg of MSM per day as well. I'm still taking my Nature's Code multi-vitamins, which has 1000mg of Vitamin C; but I add about another 400mg of Vitamin C with my nighttime dose of collagen and MSM. Also, my Borage Oil softgels came in, so I started taking one per day a few days ago (they are 1000mg). I just saw that Wahaika recommends taking Borage Oil at bedtime, so I will be doing that from now on (I had been taking it when I first got up, like an hour after BB and BO). I also saw that Wahaika suggests that 1500mg of GABA is sufficient; I've only been taking 500mg, so I've bumped that up to 1000mg for now. Whew! Oh, and I'm trying to get in two protein drinks per day instead of one. But I'm still struggling to cut down on sugar. I love my chocolate too much. But I was good and didn't have ANY today. My current shameful measurements are:
Under: 29 1/2"
Across: 32 1/2"
Above: 32 1/2"
Bra size: 34AAA
When I measure, I kinda exhale pretty much all the air out of my lungs, and hold it like that while I take all three measurements. I do it this way, because I found that if I breathed while measuring, I'd constantly get different readings; it would vary by as much as an inch, depending on how much my ribs were expanded from air in my lungs.
I gave up on NB. I just can't commit an hour every night when I'm so tired, for temporary results. NB seems to work best for women who are already a decent size, or who used to be larger at some point (like from breastfeeding). Those of us who have never been larger than we are now, and are like less than an AA cup struggle. I also quit listening to the Rockmelon ring tone. I just couldn't stand that annoying sound anymore, lol.
I don't know if the new doses of pills will work; but I do know that since I added that one extra Swanson BO last night, my breasts (the smaller right one, especially) have been pretty achy today. Mostly the upper half. Sometimes the right one ached a little underneath. I REALLY hope this works; because honestly, I'm getting really discouraged, and my self-esteem is plummeting again. I spent some time researching local plastic surgery places, and dreaming about what it would be like to wake up with breasts and look like a woman instead of a little boy. I really don't want to go there; but I'm so frustrated, and it's making me depressed. Trying to stay positive is sooo hard when all you see is cleavage everywhere you go, and here you are as flat as a board.
I wish so much I could go back in time to when I was a teenager and fix everything that went wrong so I'd have a better chance of growing normally! It's so unfair to have both of your younger sisters be full B cups while you struggle to maintain a AAA. My husband really wishes I'd stop all this NBE stuff and not even consider surgery; but as long as there's a teeny little glimmer of hope that SOMETHING might work for me, there's no way I'm gonna stop. One little thing that brightened my day a little was when I was looking at "before" and "after" photos from a reputable plastic surgery place located very close to my home (only about 6 minutes away, actually), I saw that like 6 women out of the 100 or so that they had on their site looked EXACTLY like me in their "before" picture; I mean, like a AAA size. I was SHOCKED that there were *that* many local women like me! It brought me a little comfort knowing I'm not "the only one" around here who's this flat. Except now, those women have implants and are like a B or C cup, so hmmm, maybe I AM the only one this flat around here now. OK, comfort is gone!Sorry for the vent. This past weekend was really bad for me, headache-wise and emotionally, because I was feeling so bad about myself. My rational self would never consider implants; but my desperate self would give anything to look like a woman instead of a young child.
Sigh.