[gasolinerainbow]

I'm beginning to think what's the point myself :/ I wouldn't like to end a relationship rather than work it out but he keeps making things worse! I'm quite a closeted person when it comes to sharing how I feel but by bf has encouraged me to be open with him - and that's when our relationship started going downhill!

I really hope my progestogen only pill works. I'm not overly optimistic and if it doesn't work then I would like to change back to the combined pill but I very much doubt my Dr. will let me :'( however I read that the pill I'm taking, Cerazette, is the only POP that's really (err, chemically?) close to the combined pill. It can work in the same way for some people by stopping the egg from ripening. Fingers crossed I'm one of those people.

Ughh I measured myself again today which was a mistake. I've gone DOWN to 35". That's the smallest I've ever been. My right breast is also noticably bigger than my left breast which I know is supposed to be quite normal but it's not normal for me :/ On the plus side the massage has made them a nicer shape

I think I'm getting another episode of depression and that is certainly not going to help with NBE. I get a lot more stressed than sad and tend to have the most random ailments physically manifest themselves. I used to take St Johns Wort for it but can't while on BCP as it reduces the effectiveness... Not that my boyfriend's going to get particularly lucky while I'm so down on him, so it might not hurt to take the herb anyway. I used to go to the Chinese Medical Centre when I had problems with my kidneys (TCM is SO much better than Western medicine. The Chinese are ingenius!) and they gave me tea for my depression too. It's amazing but I have absolutely no idea what's in it so I'm steering clear for the moment. By that I mean I'll probably be drinking 5 cups a day this time next week.

Can't wait for the Noogleberry to arrive I also really like the word Noogleberry (just thought I'd throw that in).