[stellsbells]

Ugh. I think I've given up. My body image and self-esteem have taken a downward spiral to the point that I'm extremely depressed. My relationship is also having issues, and it's taking a toll on me physically and mentally. I still have a surplus of breast enhancement pills and herbs, but I don't even feel that it's worth it to take them anymore. The only results I feel that I'll ever be happy with are breast augmentation. And, it's sad that I feel that surgery is my only option but I really do feel that it'll make me happy.

I think I just need to take some time for myself. I need to continue therapy for my body dysmorphic disorder, work on my relationship and sort out all the problems there (if it's even possible), and get my boobs done already. I'm sick of being unhappy :(

Sorry for all the negativity. I try to be a positive person, but with all the issues I'm having lately...that's near impossible.