[Ginie]

Thank you so much, Anastasia! I was reading your reply over and over. You've been through a lot. And yet this only made you want to help others. With advice, with few kind words. Thank you. No relatioship is perfect, I guess I must keep repeating it..

Your way of thinking is buddist-like "things will happen whether you stress over them or not"!

I get hurt so easily. I know it must be my childhood when I didn't feel love or attention (we were poor and my mom was struggling to raise me). I also have low self esteem. My husband's ex-girlfriend is very well-endowed and I was driving myself crazy because I was comparing myself to her. Why was I doing that I have no idea. Maybe I was scared that he will leave me and go back to her? Thank God I found this forum and when I saw my breasts getting bigger I kinda started feeling better about myself! I know, it shouldn't be like that because the way I feel about myself must not depend on the size of my breasts! Isn't it ridiculous? I (otherwise very reasonable person) become crazy and stupid when it comes to self esteem I guess it is something irrational. How to fight it I have no idea. I just recently started understanding that the size of the breasts is not that important to men. There are even those who prefer women with small breasts!

Did your self-esteem change after you gained 2 cup sizes? I still can't imagine what it feels like. And actually this might be one of the problems too - I must BELIEVE that I CAN have bigger breasts! I have read in the other thread (about hypnosys) that it is important to have the right image of yourself in your head! Your body kinda lives up to that picture! I don't quite understand it myself how it works. So I just keep trying to picture myself with a perfect body! I wish I could order a CD with that hypnosis thing but English is not my native language and I'm not sure it will work for me if the track is in English.

OK, about my measurements. After the period my boobs looked a little bit deflated but just for a day or two. Very quickly they started getting fuller again and now on day 6 of my cycle look almost like before the period!

I must continue with massage. I also decided to stop Omega 3-6-9 (every tme I start with it I get little pimples because Omega 6 can also promote inflamation). I shall buy just fish oil instead.