[DustBunny]

Dec 6
 
Started taking 2000mg more of MSM
 
Added
800mg Vitex
1080mg Saw Palmetto



Dec 10
 
Sill doing 1 daily massage for 20 to 30 minutes. The heating pad I've bought has been working so far, thought it’s a bit small surface area, it still warms up very nicely. I'm loving being able to use a velco strap to keep it in place. Completely hands free. I unfortunately haven't been able to be mobile with it, I cant find a USB battery pack that can handle the power it needs to heat up, so I just used it at my desk plugged in which is fine atm.
 
I use the heating pad form anywhere to 30 mins to an hour+ (while doing other stuff, so I lose track of time lol) prior to massage with the fennel and fenugreek oil mixture.
 
1st bottle of the Bella cream is gone and I still half over half of the 2nd going. I've not been diligent with putting it on twice a day, which I'm unsure if that's making a difference. Currently my sleep schedule is completely ruined and I don’t wakeup early enough in the day do justify doing it twice a day atm. Hoping to fix my sleep soon to have a better routine, but also cause sleep really helps with growth.
 

Notes:

 

• I weighed myself today out of curiosity and it looks like I've gained weight as well. 122.8lbs
  I'm not necessarily upset about that but it feels like a lot of that weight is going to my stomach and not my chest. Even though I've not taken FG(fenugreek) or MACA in over 2 months, I'm still gaining weight. Though not NEARLY as fast as when taking MACA FG extract blend. (6lbs in a month is insane to me, compared to 1.8 in two months) I think the soy flour(SF) is what is creating the weight gain.
  I'm currently not working out at all, so I'm not surprised by this. But this is good to note for future when I do want to go on a weight gain program, I can have MACA, FG and SF together and I will definitely see gains, something I thought I'd never have the ability to do.
  

 

• I've searched around a ton of different sites to find progesterone creams and for some reason it's like…no where to be really found in canada. Lots of sites wont even ship it to canada and some sites are listing it for like 50+ dollars for a single bottle.
  I've resorted to buying 2 for 20$ on amazon. It takes a bit longer to ship it could be here in a week to 4 weeks. I'm taking a chance on this cause I couldn’t find much about this brand and everything else available on amazon was just not it. SO I'm willing to test this for 10$ a bottle.  I have ZERO clue why its so hard to get your hands on PC in canada. It's the weirdest thing. And I am not about to try to go to the dr to get it…cause I know they wouldn't give it to me anyways, since I'm no a menoposal 50 year old woman lol.
  SO fingers crossed this come AND it works.
  

Adding some photos I took December 10 in different bras that I own to use for reference/progress photos. 

Black/flower bralette is tight on me and fits me ok. The band is a bit small but it fits my boobs nicely so I like to wear it sometimes. 

Blue bralette is large and baggy on me even though its supposed to be a small. The band isnt super lose but it's comfortable. This one really shows how little volume I have uptop and in the center of my chest. Also the awful shape of my nips which I hate and have 0 idea how to fix lol. 

Grey bra is one I will sometimes wear if Im leaving the house. I have on in black as well, they were usually my go to push up bras but they are getting tight in the band and I am starting to notice that they are a bit too small for me. I'll still wear them until I literally cannot fit into them anymore. 

I don't have a photo yet but my other semi pushup bras I have, pink and white and the other ones I will wear if Im going out/trying to look nice. They are balconette style and I'm finally starting to fit into them. I have a bit of gaping in the center to be expected, but I wore them over the holidays in a Vneck tank top and I thought my chest looked great... something I'd never even imagine myself thinking before when wearing those (or really any) bras. 

I usually never wear bras but have been doing it more just to be able to keep track of physical progress and see how different bras fit me to get a better sense of what I want to focus on as well as understanding what size I am/want to be. 

These pics are for progress reference so I can go back and remind myself that I AM seeing progress and it's not all in my head and to have something to hopefully look back on one day and go, can't believe that used to be me!

Hopefully when I get back on the NBE grind I can see enough progress that OTHER people start to notice lol. That's how you know it's for real.