04-08-2023, 07:24
I'm really starting to feel stupid posting here... The only person who apparently ever communcates is Mashtenn who talks with me on regular basis on Nexum too and otherwise its dead silent. I don't like to keep up a monologue forever, but well this forum has been extremely silent for a long time anyway.
Also I don't like to be reminded and be "put on my place" all the time by someone feeling so high and mighty with a luckier background on transition either. Who the fuck does choose when things happen and how they happen huh? Who chooses to be cursed by Y chromosome and lack on information and understanding? I sure as hell never did. And guess what, In twenty five months I've become stealth passable curvy lady. Even with my massive 180cm tall, 115kg heavy overgrown body which makes me bigger than half of men and 90% of women. I'm pretty good at this despite missing the youth train.
I don't need to be reminded on how horrible it is to be tall and wide and heavy either, there are more ways to femininity and beauty than being a tiny little pixie the firsrt gust of wind knocks over. I never chose to do this "late", I never chose this body, I never chose to be a goddamn huge amazon chick. But got to rock what ya got. At least I'm good at getting curvy and doing in two years what some can't do in five.
Anyway, my natural curiosity keeps me reading and there's not much else happening. I think I'm gonna give up on posting often as it feels absolutely useless. I don't feel welcome, I don't need endless reminder of how I am "lesser than" for what ever fucking reasons. Intentional or not, it pisses me off. I'm worthy. I'm a woman. I'm not lesser than! Iif I feel like the opposite is being rubbed on my face somehow, I leave, I have real friends and better places where I feel welcome.
Also I don't like to be reminded and be "put on my place" all the time by someone feeling so high and mighty with a luckier background on transition either. Who the fuck does choose when things happen and how they happen huh? Who chooses to be cursed by Y chromosome and lack on information and understanding? I sure as hell never did. And guess what, In twenty five months I've become stealth passable curvy lady. Even with my massive 180cm tall, 115kg heavy overgrown body which makes me bigger than half of men and 90% of women. I'm pretty good at this despite missing the youth train.
I don't need to be reminded on how horrible it is to be tall and wide and heavy either, there are more ways to femininity and beauty than being a tiny little pixie the firsrt gust of wind knocks over. I never chose to do this "late", I never chose this body, I never chose to be a goddamn huge amazon chick. But got to rock what ya got. At least I'm good at getting curvy and doing in two years what some can't do in five. Anyway, my natural curiosity keeps me reading and there's not much else happening. I think I'm gonna give up on posting often as it feels absolutely useless. I don't feel welcome, I don't need endless reminder of how I am "lesser than" for what ever fucking reasons. Intentional or not, it pisses me off. I'm worthy. I'm a woman. I'm not lesser than! Iif I feel like the opposite is being rubbed on my face somehow, I leave, I have real friends and better places where I feel welcome.