I'm still alive. I decided to post here less and let NBE take a backseat (still not given up on it though) since it was consuming too much of my mental energy.
The bad news is that I stopped focusing on my breasts and developed a new insecurity instead that plagues me daily. Unlike breast size, it's not something I can change. Life would be easier if nobody had to see what I look like.
Just sharing some of my thoughts.
1. I am very light on the NBE these days. I increased my eating habits, try to consume NBE foods and I massage when I have a moment and feel like it. My breast growth is slow but still working, I caught sight of my breasts from the side this morning and was amazed at how far they come out from my body. The front view they look very round and the inner breast is starting to fill a bit. I haven't gained a cup size for a long time but this is good progress to see.
2. I still envy larger breasted women and desperately wish I could be like them but I have accepted that I will probably always have small breasts unless I resort to surgery. My current goal is to work on getting curvier but focus less on having huge breasts because it isn't realistic.