[dreamergirl]

Posting in the self hatred thread to vent.

I find my self hatred is always activated the most when seeing busty women.

My mind gets filled with thoughts about how I'll never look like that and how disgusting and worthless I look in comparison. I want to be that so desperately, they don't even know how lucky they are. I spend every day of my life consumed by thoughts and choosing every action around growing my breasts and they probably never spared a thought to have perfect breasts.

Sometimes I come to ALMOST accept my body until I see them and it hurts.

I don't really hate these women for hurting me with their existence but it would be a lot easier if I never had to see them.

I wish I was born with their body genetics instead of mine that made me naturally small all over. I don't feel like a woman in this body.

Dreamergirl please I urge you to consider seeing a psychologist/therapist! They can do far more for your mental and emotional well being than any of us here can do! Trust me I see one myself I too have struggled with poor self image, self confidence and hating myself at times.... I still do struggle with these things atleast every second day for a few hours its torture I know too well so please dont feel you are alone because you are not mental health is REAL mental health is NORMAL and so so common its just that not everyone is brave enough to talk about it. Please see someone this is sooooo much more than your breast size so much more as someone who has dealt with an array of mental health for many years I can see it so clearly. Sending you much love, a peaceful mind and a whole heart during these Christmas holidays. You are not alone X

Thank you. I have been told this by many people who know me personally and I don't doubt there is something psychological causing my problems. Although I do mostly blame society for making me feel so inadequate for having a small chest to begin with, if smaller chests were celebrated and considered to be sexy by the main population I wouldn't have to feel worthless. I know that society considers large breasts to be the peak of female sexuality and womanhood, though...

I'm sorry to hear that you struggle so often too, you're always so positive and helpful on here and you stand up for others.