[Nefertity]

I understand you Cely, the reason I haven’t told him or anyone else is because I feel it is my business. It’s my body and about my confidence and I don’t care what anyone else thinks of it. The reason I want to tell him is simply because since NBE is something I do daily with massage and pumping and he is home all the time I feel like I’m sneaking around... almost like I’m having an affair with my breasts haha..! I’m not lying to anyone but at the same time I am keeping this secret. I wouldn’t feel this way at all if he simply worked at the office and I had time for my self. 

On the other hand it would feel so good to not hide it and to ramp up my pumping hours. It’s like I’m afraid he’s going to see me differently somehow? Like look down on me for being vain and insecure. I can’t decide 

I can understand why you don't want to tell him. You don't want him to look at you differently and you want it to be something personal and private.

I think that you have that right but also since he has seen you sneaking away into the bathroom to do it, it might arise problems in your relationship if he starts to get suspicious that something is up. Of course he won't guess about NBE, his mind might go to worse places even if he is not insecure. Because he will know that you are hiding something and he doesn't know what.

I think that your only options now are to make sure he never catches you again, or to be honest and upfront if he does.

I must have replied here at the same time you posted and that’s why I didn’t see it..!

You are absolutely right, I’m also worried he will start suspecting something worse. the thing is I always bring my phone with me to the bathroom too to listen to podcasts while pumping. There’s only so much you can get done during a whole hour. So far he doesn’t think it’s wierd because I have always taken long showers and I do spend time on facials and all that “girly stuff”. But hell, if the roles was reversed and he suddenly disappeared to the bathroom with his phone for over an hour daily I would definitely be suspicious..!

I read him very well so if I notice it starts worrying him for real I will swallow my pride and just tell him. I would hate to stress him for such a stupid thing, so I can make peace with telling him to avoid him feeling bad.