[dreamergirl]

I understand you Cely, the reason I haven’t told him or anyone else is because I feel it is my business. It’s my body and about my confidence and I don’t care what anyone else thinks of it. The reason I want to tell him is simply because since NBE is something I do daily with massage and pumping and he is home all the time I feel like I’m sneaking around... almost like I’m having an affair with my breasts haha..! I’m not lying to anyone but at the same time I am keeping this secret. I wouldn’t feel this way at all if he simply worked at the office and I had time for my self. 

On the other hand it would feel so good to not hide it and to ramp up my pumping hours. It’s like I’m afraid he’s going to see me differently somehow? Like look down on me for being vain and insecure. I can’t decide 

I can understand why you don't want to tell him. You don't want him to look at you differently and you want it to be something personal and private.

I think that you have that right but also since he has seen you sneaking away into the bathroom to do it, it might arise problems in your relationship if he starts to get suspicious that something is up. Of course he won't guess about NBE, his mind might go to worse places even if he is not insecure. Because he will know that you are hiding something and he doesn't know what.

I think that your only options now are to make sure he never catches you again, or to be honest and upfront if he does.