Hi Dreamergirl,
I'm sorry to know you are so depressed. I'm ashamed that i didnt understand how much until now. I am the eternal optimist so I have a habit of always seeing the other better, or at least the other side of life.
I used to struggle with, who am I, why am I here, why am I always on the bottom, etc. I spent lots of money and lots of time with self help programs and life coaches.
In my travels I found Mike Dooley. Here is his link
https://club.tut.com/membership?noPopup=1
This is a membership that will cost you a little to join but his wisdom is easy to follow and brilliant.
He also sends out 'notes from the universe' every weekday for free and everyone hits the mark for me,
https://www.tut.com/account/quicksignup?noPopup=1
One of his more important lessons is that if you continue to see the world as a problem and its dark, then you will fall farther and farther into the pit of despair!
So a simple lesson is to change your view, even if you feel its not true, just try it. Wake each morning and tell yourself it will be a beautiful day, the sun is shining or its a lovely rain or snow. What ever you have make it a positive thing.
If you feel yourself falling down during the day, find something beautiful or nice and comment on it.
Before you know it you too will be a lot happier with a better disposition.
As for your friend I dont think he wanted to get rid of you, because you have small breasts. Maybe you should ask him why he sent you away, it might have been to keep you safe from corona, or he didnt want to share you with his friends, or its a guy thing.
And lastly look at the fashion models as they walk the walkway in their amazing dresses. 99% are as flat as can be, and they are all gorgeous!
So toss those sweat pants and jazz up the whole dreamer girl for the world, and mostly YOU, to enjoy.
Alright my job is done now its your turn.
Huggs
Bobbi