I know that not every NBE user deals with self hatred, I have seen some amazing positive and self loving attitudes on this site that I am very envious of.
But there is definitely a proportion of us here who are insecure because of our chests, and we might hate ourselves, so this is a thread about that.
I am not a conventional beauty, but I can let that go. I'm moderately attractive enough in my own unique way and I'll live with my face.
When it comes to my breasts on the other hand, I can't let it go. Thoughts about it consume me. I hate myself.
Being a small breasted woman makes me feel unworthy, worthless, invisible and unwanted in society.
How could I ever feel sexy when a large breasted woman can look sexier in a basic baggy t-shirt than I could ever look in the most sensual lingerie?
It eats away at me, my self esteem is borderline nonexistant. I know that I'd be treated better with larger breasts, even a small taste with a pushup bra gives me this experience.
I long for all of the little things... I've dreamt of them since my failed puberty.
I constantly daydream about what I would look like with large breasts, what I would do if I had large breasts, how confident and happy I'd be with large breasts, what I would wear if I had large breasts. And then I look down at my own chest... and my heart breaks at how far away I am.
Sometimes I feel like I don't want to exist anymore. Not if I'm stuck like this. I envy natural chests over plastic ones which is why I'm here with NBE, but can I really hope for a miracle? If it takes plastic surgery to save my life, I guess I have to take it. I wish I was one of the lucky ones who didn't even have to THINK about enhancing my chest... if I'd only been given a natural full chest. My life would be so different and so would my self esteem.
I try to put up a positive facade here but I hate myself.
If you have similar feelings you can vent in the comments.