[koyasha]

Update on acknowledging my progress: Been more strict on my routine lately, strict breast massage routine and making sure to consume more calories including breast growth stimulating foods. Hard to notice my progress but I definitely do feel like they are rounder, heavier and the shape has changed. Since they are bigger the nipple position seems to have changed so it isn't completely central to the breast, and from the side it seems more round and bigger. There's a bit more fat in the middle since I can make a slightly better cleavage with force.

I am completely obsessed and consumed by growing my breasts at this point, driven by my own self loathing. I am determined to see results.

I can relate to your last sentence about the self loathing. 
You said you can't order anything online. Can you send money via paypal? I could order you a Kangzhu pumping set online (cheap version of Noogleberry, I am very happy with mine) and send it your way?

Very motivating for me to read that nipple position can change, I hope you are happy with the change? Congrats on being able to make more cleavage and on your breasts becoming rounder, fuller and heavier!!

I'm very touched by your offer, thank you. I did not ever expect that someone on this site would offer to help me out like that. Unfortunately due to my living situation I'm not able to do online purchases or transfers.

My personal suspicion about the nipple placement is that it will "move" depending on where the fat grows, or if the weight of the breast increases. If you gain more lower breast fat it may appear to move up, but in my case due to the weight dragging it down it appears lower. I'm happy with it.

It's a struggle still to notice changes due to the high chance that I am suffering from BDD but I'm happy with the progress I have made so far and hope to keep growing.

I would have loved to help you out! I know what it's like to want or to be desperate to change the size or shape of your breasts. I don't know what your situation is like, but if there is anything I can do to help, just let me know :-) 

I see. My nipple points outward when I am laying on my side. When laying on my left side, my right nipple points up because the fat from my breast moves to the inside. I'm not happy about that. There is a gap between my breasts, so I am wondering that if I gained more breast fat on the inner side, this wouldn't be happening anymore.

Glad you are happy about your nipple appearing lower and about the overall progress you have made even though it is hard for you to notice changes. 
Are you taking pictures of yourself for comparison?