Recently after upgrading my bra size, I have sat down and thought about my journey.
I realised I was extremely, suicidally unhappy with my breasts and set out on this journey just over 2 years ago. At the time I was wearing a 32B bra and probably not even filling it out 100%. As of recently, I started wearing a 32D bra and I fill it out comfortably.
B to D sounds like a huge difference, but I don't feel like I've changed at all. I'm mid 20s and I feel permanently stuck in my teenage body.
A friend suggested I have BDD and maybe that's why I can't acknowledge that I've changed. But I still struggle to make cleavage, and I still feel flat chested compared to other women I look at.
32D is not what my dreams would have made it out to be. I want to be at least 5x bigger than this, at the very least I need NATURAL cleavage before I can be happy. To make cleavage with my breasts takes a lot of force and pushup bras, and I think it looks silly and forced. I do have breasts that lean towards the outside which makes it harder.
I'm sure someone might ask about my routine.
I have never taken the herbs or medicinal routes suggested here because mostly they are hard to find and I can't order online.
My routine is daily breast massages based on techniques I learnt in videos, eating with intent to add weight to my breasts (I am naturally skinny and it is hard for me to gain weight so I focus on calorie intake), and until recently I was also drinking a carton of soy milk a day.
I would say that my progress does not feel visible to me at all, I only know that it's there because I can look at my bra size.
Does anyone else have a similar experience?
I hope that I can continue growing until I finally notice the difference.