[Happyme]

Hi Aboreal,
I've had similar issues and fought through them on my own.
I am a wee bit older than you are, but knowing what I know now I would suggest you drop in to a psychologist, therapist, or whom ever and explain your story, much like you told us.
Your continuing fear of intimacy I'm sure (like mine) is rooted in your upbringing.
Parents try their best, but often cant see the future.
Bobbi