[hannah]

Okay can it happen that you love(d) somebody(your partner) a lot and that by his behaviour your suddenly very very turned off? Im afraid that tomorrow we are kissing and cuttling again but i think I shouldnt do that anymore... he was like saying in a discussion( I called him sexist) and then he was like yes Im a sexist I fucked so many girls every week another ,I even fucked somebody's MUM....Im so so turned off by this...thereby hes constantly grabbing my boobies licking them etc ever since they are bigger....and for me it feels wrong after what he said I dont want to fuck with him never ever again...I mean it should be about love not sex as if its porn! I'm seriously stuck in my life...what have i begun by comitting to him..I could cry endlessly and still dont see a solution...I shouldnt be regretting that I have a kid with him but I am....its either with or without him,with a kid how is this supposed to work out!!!? I'm doomed so badly gosh!

edit: I actually dont know why Im bringing this here, but my heart feels like a rock...I have stomach pain Im tired and upset and above all very desperate.