[Tanya Marie Squirrel]

From 4/10/16 to 4/16/16 I'd been in an alarming state.
I could not control my emotions.
I had no focus or drive. I couldn't seem to get anything done.
I even thought about suicide.
Out of nowhere, I would start to cry uncontrollably.
I almost lost it in front of my boss on the ride home.
I had to come out to a very close friend. She knows everything about me now and my plans to transition.
I texted her on the ride home with my boss and she told me to come right over. As I got to her house I couldn't hold it back anymore. She opened the door and I finally lost it. I was in full crying mode. I couldn't stop for about 15 minutes. She asked me what started it. I told her What I was doing at the time. Nothing stressful or emotional. Just my usual work. Well she dug very deep and like I said I finally came out of the closet. I talked to my mother later that night and I told her that it's been a emotional roller coaster ride. Ups and bad downs. Now she doesn't know what I'm doing. But has noticed my breasts. She just thinks my hormones are off and the upcoming doctors visit will help. But mom said that the way I'm feeling is like a woman who is on her monthly minus certain body parts. This got me thinking, how can this be. I'm a biological male.

This is what I'm taking.
BO, three pills in the morning and three more at night.
PM, three pills in the morning and three more at night. I make my own pills size 000.
Saw palmetto, three in the morning.
Fenugreek, three in the morning.
PC cream in the morning.

I would appreciate any help or thoughts you can give me.

sounds like your on an Estrogen rollercoaster with all that Pm and B.O. you are taking, it is not recommended to take them both at once. Usually a person chooses just one or the other. I would also avoid taking Fenugreek as well, since that is also an estrogenic type compound.