[solome]

several years ago i started losing a lot of sleep for a period of 2wks. i passed out while at my desk at work, so, i went straight to the doctor. they gave me a prescription. i’m sensitive to medications and rarely take pharmaceuticals so i broke the pill in half and took 1/2 every night. on the 6th day, i woke up and was a different person. i’ve never ever ever been so filled with such darkness and despair in my whole life. several times that day and the next i would drop to the floor crying. i felt like my life was over. some of that state of despair was tinkering with memories of two years earlier when a family member very close to me died of breast cancer. i’d never experienced death so close. i didn’t handle the grief so well. anyway, that deep despair and those crying bouts lasted for about 48hrs. for the first time in my life i could understand how someone could take their life. i wouldn't, but i understood. i started searching about the zolpidem i was taking and found it was an ambien generic. most on the forum i found seemed like about 95% experienced becoming active during sleep and 5% became intensely emotionally fatal like me. anyway, after that, i found this very informative site …probably listed somewhere on this forum but i’ll list it here https://sleepfoundation.org/sleep-disorders-problems i still have some issues ..i have no problem going to sleep, i drop off quickly. instead, waking often during the night. i have to fight to keep myself from thinking on a conscious level cuz if i think, i’ll prolong my little wake periods. i just have to keep my mind in a state of nothingness. i know, i think we all know that not getting enough uninterrupted sleep can mess with your health and our dreams of more impressive boobage. i know it’s critical to good cellular health and mitosis and some other big words that i can’t think of.