[need2grow]

As I stated in a different post, my main problem I think is that I am not consistent in what I do. For example I started drinking a protein shake in the morning these days and I know that if I want results I will have to not get lazy.Unfortunately I tend to get lazy. I have days when I eat heathy and good food for my body but days when I eat the not the right stuff. And don't get me wrong, I don't eat fast food, don't drink soda, coffee, don't buy store foods, processed meats or sweets. But I knoe that is still not enough. And deep down I feel that if I want to see significant results that the changes should be bigger than just refusing a Big Mac or a glass of Coca Cola. I am starting to be more aware of what is doing harm to my body( years I thought that it was normal for me to be bloated like a ballon) but can't get to that moment when I say The end for ever. And although I don't want to blamr him, my boyfriend is a fan of traditional food. And you know that our traditional food is quite fatty and full of bad stuff. I tried to lure him with all sort of salads, raw desserts but my banana pancakes or no good for him. I am aware that I could just cook for him these kind of things and I could just make the choice to eat seperately but I also don't want to go banckrupt because let's face it, we spend a lot of money on food. I only could convince him to give up to all proccesed foods but he does not want to quit meat.
But my biggest problem I think is my sugar addiction. I ate all my life so much sugar and although I don't buy anymore the proccessed ones I still indulge myself with some home-made cakes or from the cafeteria. Which is still stuffed with sugar. I also ate a lot of pastry(God damn the " merdenele") but don't anymore.
For the liver cleanse, is the warm water glass with lemon in the morning efficient? What should I do more? I took many years BCP and I guess my liver is quite tired.

I am smiling. First of all not that it should matter to you or not but I am proud of you for willing to change those things in your life. It's so funny because I do see that we have so many things in common.(even the braces part, I am obsessed with getting braces but I can't at the moment, it's too expensive for me) I too was skinny and wanted to be more "fluffy" lol (although I had a big bottom my whole life,I know you do too, I read your thread) and about 1 year and a halfago I started this "marathon" of shoving fast foods and processed foods down my throat, protein shakes, meat..you name it. I won the gold medal! I was just getting out of a hard chapter in my life and because of all that stress it became impossible for me to gain weight. That's also the reason why I got skinny. So I "figured" that that was the way to do it. I remember I would get tired eating, because I ate all day. After a couple of months I started expanding I shall say, and I did gain a lot of weight but then I got this feeling that I need to cure my acne once and for all. I wasn't healthy at all by that time. And I saw that all those "legit" articles about how I could clear my acne were related to food. You said that for many years you got yourself into thinking that it is normal to "be bloated like a ballon" and oh god.... oh god I just can't explain this to you good enough. I was bloated ALL THE TIME. ALL! the time. I got sooooo tired of it and sometimes I would get so terribly bloated that I thought my stern would break. And it would hurt even if I tried to breath. With each breath I would get more bloated. I do understand you, really! So I figured I would cut some of the foods out and see if my acne would respond. And it did. Mostly after I stopped eating bread,pastry,flour..that stuff, and sugar. But I also had stomach problems. It was so bad!! So I started eating a lot of spinach, mushrooms, watercress, because I saw that I felt good when I ate those. And shortly after I gave up meat. I started schooling myself everyday. I also found out that I love doing this, and I understand those topics so fast. I now no longer use toothpaste, shampoo, bodywash products, soaps, lotions, acne creams, deodorants, hair products, I don't dye my hair anymore, I can't wait for my hair to grow long enough so I can cut the dyed part. I don't use foundations. Pretty much everything I eat, and put on my body is 100% natural. I use coconut oil as a lotion, as a face cream, as toothpaste, hair product, EVEN DEODORANT (it's great for unwanted odors) I wash my hair with handmade shampoos that I get from the site that I gave you the link to. (vitex one) They're 100% natural and they're absolutely wonderful. Same goes for the soap. So I fluctuated so fast from shoving those nasty things in my body to basically getting rid of everything that isn't natural. And of course. I lost that weight but now I can easily control my weight and I am not sick anymore. I suggest you taking Maca, it helps with gaining weight. Take maca along with the nuts and honey. I think you should see results. But try and get rid of those products. You have no idea how many things they can do. I still don't know A LOT of stuff. But that's why I said I'm prod of you, because you're willing to give it a try, as I did. And I want you to consider the fact that I did all of these things in less than a year. You can do it as well. In fact, everybody does. And yes! I know that we don't have that many opportunities here in our country and everything is expensive in comparison with what the gov. pays you. But you can succeed, you'll find a way. It is not food. It's a way of living. I want to give you some inspiration, because it worked for me. Give this lady some searches on google and you'll be blown away by what you'll find out about food and how taking care of yourself (natural ways) can change your life! Here:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oDSLhmahsiY
She's 70+ years old now, she only eats raw food, and she gave up meat many years ago.
Enjoy your journey!

Quick edit: sorry, I skipped your question about the lemon juice. It's a very good way of detoxifying indeed but I would put it aside for a bit if you say you want to gain weight. Try the other options that I mentioned. And yes, BCP must have done a lot of bad things to your health. I'm a bit terrified of those,really..but anyway. I'm sure you'll get healthy soon. (: