04-04-2015, 07:34
Update, April 4th: Feeling small chested and discouraged today. Finding it hard to keep the positive attitude going. I have no swelling and feel and look small but I just measured myself at 92cm. I have definitely grown since February. I'm glad I started measuring because it is really keeping me going. I am never generous with the measuring tape and always do it the same way, the tightest that you can go is what number I would rather assume is my measurement then the largest. I know for a fact from measurements that I am at least 2cm larger at my smallest and at least 3cm larger at my fullest part of the month. I really wish I hadn't used the noogle berry for a year and used this program instead, it makes it so hard to not get discouraged now because I wasted so much time and got nothing, I get scared I will get nothing from this either and my life will pass me by. I have to stop living in the past and move on. I have to forgive myself for not succeeding with that and for staying up late into the mornings, wasting so much time, so many hours. I'm so hard on myself and I need to forgive myself.